looking back at my old entries makes me wonder about myself. i think im possibly retarded sometimes.

is just so damn confusing to me. i guess i havent changed much lol ( Read more... )

im falling for him....

hard.

my life is so confusing. everything is fine.... but at the same time so wrong. we are ending another year... and yet nothing has been accomplished. i will never understand that. and ive been taken over by something else. im not me... i dont make my own choices anymore. nothing i do is right... and im torn between 2 people who hate eachother. one is ( Read more... )

So I run, hide and tear myself up ( Read more... )

something about this time of year.....

i just cant control myself.

and i miss him... he needs to come home from his dads... but hes going back to school in a week =(
what am i going to do??

im not a teenager anymore.....

It's a long way back to reality ( Read more... )

Remember that blue crystal sky ( Read more... )

so right now im over at jessicas.... let me tell you... everything that i have thought and planned is just not really what it seems. apparently im "married" but to tell you the honest truth... im just not seeing it. how is it that everyone sees all these things that just arent there? i mean i dont feel any of it is actually happening. no matter ( Read more... )