do you ever feel like everything is wrong but you can't put your finger on exactly what it is thats actually bothering you? i always think i have everything figured out and then come to find out i know nothing at all. i'm constantly just looking at my life and myself and i think what i hate most is me. i don't understand why i'm always so up and ( Read more... )

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 tonight brought feelings back that i didn't even know existed anymore for someone.  i don't know what to do except cry.  i don't know why people [myself included, obviously] have people in their lives that just kind of tear you apart.  My heart hurts right now. i wish i had never met him.  i don't know how to let go. i don't think i ever can......

 So, i'm pretty stoked on the fact that after almost 2 and a half years probation i'll be off on the 24th. Basically if you just pretend it's midnight, that's 8 days away. It's kind of wierd and kind of scary, but i'm happy.  I can honestly say that i'm happy.  I hope that my life continues on an upward trend instead of spiraling back down towards ( Read more... )

I have some pretty amazing friends.  For a while i was thinking that everything changed and a lot of people suck. [which they do] but i was hoping for friendship from people that haven't actually been my friend in a couple years.  I realized that my good friends are still here and they never went anywhere.  Yeah, people change but who doesn't?  ( Read more... )

i'm starting to think moving was a mistake. i'm miserable. my bank account is miserable. although i wasn't much happier back home... what happened to every fucking friend i thought i had. i think tonight finally put things into perspective.

I haven't posted in forever.. It's kind of wierd how LJ has evolved into what it is. I move in 12 days so i'm pretty stoked on that. I have 4 months (give or take) until i'm finally off the 2 and a half year probation plan. I turn 21 in less then three months once i'm off probation.... uhh, i don't know. I start school again in January. Everything ( Read more... )

most of you have yet to add my new lj. 
youre all pissing me off so do it.

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well i added all of you to the new LJ. [[i think]] i guess it would have been easier to just post the direct link. hah, oh well i'm retarded.shockaaaa   there you go. bye.

i have a new livejournal.

if you want to be added then comment.