sometimes i beleive that if i'm going to get anywhere new i need to reach into my inner coils into my bloody guts and tear out the impossible idea that all the hedwig and plato nonsense i incorporated into myself at some point in tim and rip it out of me and get a practical pragmatic approach to sex and any dealings i want to have wish i did but ( Read more... )

i suscessfully completed a 48 hour juice fast today and i had meant to continue it till sunday but my good friend bexie was leaving for south america for a indefinite amount of time on sunday and invited me to cook creative vegan concoctions with her to clean out her cupboards so i had dinner but was amazingly full after one plate and now feel ( Read more... )

i told a customer at the cafe ,today ,off ( Read more... )

i didn't want to wake up today i tried to pull the blankets tight around my head and fantasize about ways to create some apparatus that would create a door like feature in my room so i wouldn't notice everyone coming in and out. if you didn't know by now my room is acctually a living room thta people have to walk through to get to the kitchen. and ( Read more... )

valentines day gets so boring when you're not a kid anymore oh and i guess more if you're single, but really really i think my favorite valentines days have been when i was a kid and made kleenex box or paper plate card holders passed valentines to classmates ate cheap chocolate made crafts and ate frosted cookies and cupcakes. i would give violets ( Read more... )

mostly everyone i wanted to see or i wanted something from happened to me this weekend/ yesterday. its so funny when you think to yourself i'm gonna stop thinking about how bad i have it and know one loves me that things start to happen . friday i went to class with this thought and i went through my tedious drawing class resolved to be productive ( Read more... )

i've been sick this week so now i get to play catchup with school it makes me feel inadequette but i will break the feeling. i think the rest time was good it made me think and pause and realize the insignificance of the social problems and look at my life which yes has these social trends in it repeatedly, but i was reading something about my ( Read more... )

i feel like the constant city is sucking my soul out again. people flake left and right. and everything is lonliness and diligence. sometimes i wish i hadn't got back into school so i could have moved out of this city and accepted failure. i still like boys way too quickly i don't understand how i can continue this trend after all the previous ( Read more... )

i had today off and waited around the house but all i got was i'll call you later. happy shiny fantasies of course vanished that shouldn't be there at all. anyways its probally ok apparently a side effect of accutane can be inflammatory bowels? which i may just be developing. hmmmmm atleast my skin looks fucking fantastic the whole reason i had a ( Read more... )

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