i don't like it when boys a year or two younger than me are dating my old suitors that i dated three years ago. it makes one feel passed up.

i was always really capable with using my imagination. i wasn't allowed video games and my sister and i were the only two children in the general neighborhood. so i played alone in the backyard alot and spoke to myself and sometimes sang. and when i went to bed i made up little shop girl stories in my head, and in the bath i still pretend people ( Read more... )

i went home sick from the cafe yesterday,in the year and a few months i've worked there i've never called in sick or went home early. but i'm tired and my life needs change. the accutane is makig me really emotional but its already making great improvements skin wise, i'm sure the outcome will be worth it. flaming horse and i are no more. just good ( Read more... )

i do not like the status quo as usual ( Read more... )

when it comes to relationships i'm a huge fucking pattern. i instigate i seek out i love i want i desire and as the other lines and images pull through it fades to me i tire i despond and i go with it anyways for a bit till its too redundant so far removed from myself that i have to severe it once again this faces me and once again i'll have to ( Read more... )

yesterday i came down with a cold i think i flushed it out pretty well except for my stuffy nose. good thing about being sick it makes me want to stick to my healthy non inflamatory diet.i'm really liking being healthy for the most part not having coffee sugar and very limited wheat at the beginning of the day also limiting soy is easy on my ( Read more... )

please don't speak so positvely ( Read more... )

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i feel like a phoney. i start to think my entire life is one big shamble. i'm completely clueless, i just sat into a living room for a good two hours having no idea whether anyone wanted me to be there finding out that no one really did and realizing if i wasn't so selfish and lonely/pathetic i wouldn't have wanted to stay there either or wander ( Read more... )

i really do desire that i was the type of individual that wasn't so fixtated on being a desire of someone else and so preoccupied on my desires which usually end up being a person person. unfortuneatly that is my nature, and somehow i doubt i was equiped properly with the attributed needed for such a specific goal oriented heart. on the downside ( Read more... )