A new year, a new start...

01/01/2010: 187 lbs
02/01/2010: 183 lbs (down 4 lbs) ( Measurements )

Had an *amazing* time at One Roof yesterday. I was blessed to have thesilverlight and her husband Trevor joining me for the day, and had the chance to get to know one of my softball teammates, Phil, a bit better as he was kind enough to give us a lift to and from Brampton. I was excited to see how much he and Trevor seemed to have in common, since I knew Trevor ( Read more... )

God has formed such an amazing day for me. Therapy went fine for me, and I made an appointment to see her again next week. I have sort of an assignment this week to work on eye contact. I told Christopher and he said, "You don't have trouble with eye contact." And I was like, "Are you serious??" Has he met me? Eye contact has always been so ( Read more... )

I had a really fantastic day with thesilverlight yesterday. I dropped by her house after my late morning doctor's appointment in Thornhill, and spent the whole day with her. We talked about anxiety, went out for lunch together, and just spent time discussing random topics and laughing. I was so happy to be able to share the coping tools I learned in anxiety ( Read more... )

Today was such a crazy day of varying emotions for me. I feel so tired, and feel like I've been all over the place today. My mind is utterly exhausted ( Read more... )

There's a passage in the gospel of John, wherein John rests his head on Jesus's chest and listens to the Master's heartbeat. It's one of the most endearing and comforting visuals in the entire Bible. Many nights as I lay my head down to end the day, I can picture my own heavy head resting not on a stack of pillows, but on my Saviour's heart, and I ( Read more... )

I was surfing around TheMeetingHouse.ca last night, and realized that there's a home church in Thornhill that isn't dreadfully inaccessible by bus (Leslie St/John St, for those familiar with our area). On a whim, I decided to see if there was a bus I could take and tried to get there on my own. I'm so glad I made that huge step. Everyone was very ( Read more... )

I felt like group went really well for me today. Last week we talked a bit about the rollercoaster effect of anxiety, reaching a peak with the physical symptoms and coming down. This week, we went on to discuss cause and effect with thinking errors that precipitate the disorder. She had us do exercises in what they call a "thought journal" format, ( Read more... )

I feel sick inside. I'm searching through Craigslist for part time jobs. Just one day a week to start. Each time I see an ad I would maybe respond to, my entire body tenses. My mind races with doubt. Why would anyone hire me for just one day a week? That's stupid. No one's going to do that. I'm never going to get any better ( Read more... )

I don't know if it was my new vitamins (a basic multi, and a B complex supplement), or just carryover from yesterday's activity. I just woke up feeling really energized today, with the urge to be quite productive. I did a lot of cleaning up the house, and just generally felt really good. I would have liked to have done more, but I did get tired ( Read more... )