Yeah Yeah YEAH I know I havent updated since like, before christmas. but that doesnt mean I dont think about it. I do. I'll be on the shitter like hmmm maybe I should update my lj, and as we know all the thoughts on the shitter usually go down it once you flush. *oops ( Read more... )

where the hell is my backround ( Read more... )

So I got to florida yesterday morning, all I did yesterday was sleep at the camper..and oooooh it was nice, after the 15 hour car ride, in which i did NOT sleep.... that was a nice nice break. Plus my mom basicly forced vicoden down my throat, and i sware to fucking god less than 5 minutes later i couldnt move, and like my breathing slowed basicly ( Read more... )

Man i'm fucking TIRED. i was up till about 6-7 ish this smorning, and sis calls a few minutes ago...time to get back to work. I hate to be a crab ass but BOOOOOO i am NOT enjoying this shit. I feel like a bloody pack mule, i lift, i move, she drives and puts away ( Read more... )

So, I got here thursday at 1 am, and at 6 am, it started. I got my sister of to school, helped get muh babies off to school / daycare, then i baby sat ian all day, watched carrie, keith, kylie, kyler, and korey that night, got up watched em all all day long, then i went out, came home, got up watched em all all day long again ( Read more... )

I cant sleep. I'm restless. blah ( Read more... )

So I had a long talk with my mom today. Granted, she was on the phone on her way to florida but we talked ( Read more... )

I'm so fucking pissed/ upset i just...blah ( Read more... )

I get to thinking about shit. I hate it. I have my life. I hate the way things go. I hate being alone all the time etc etc. So I had the phone in my hand, I had the number dialed. I was gonna call home and have them send for me and just say goodbye to all of it ( Read more... )

Yeah so first off ( Read more... )