ReitaxRuki - Behind Closed Eyes [3/?]

[ccgensou]

Title: Behind Closed Eyes - [3/?]
Author: ccgensou
Genre: Angst
Rating: R
Warning: Eating Disorders, Self-Injury, Gore, Language, Violence.
Band: The GazettE
Pairing: Reita/Ruki
Summary: We're all blind.
Comments: I'm not sure. Please read the author's note at the end. Thanks. Okay. *goes to hide*

Previous:
Prologue.
Chapter 1
Chapter 2

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Comments

[anonymous]

I know it's late and maybe you won't ever read this but I just... I don't really know what I want to achieve with this comment

[ccgensou]

Hello.
I am usually too shy and anti-social to reply to comments nowadays, anymore. But for some reason I feel compelled to reply to yours, even though, I wonder if it will reach you since you are writing anonymously. I don't know how that works. That said, I guess what I want to say is thank you for your comment. I still read every comment even if I do not have the strength to reply, very often. It makes me slightly sadly glad that you can find comfort from this story. Sad because I understand from what you say that you are struggling, too, but glad if, in any way at all, what I have put in words can help.
At first when you wrote one and a half year, I thought you had it wrong, but wow. I just realised that it really been that long. Things have not changed much for me. Maybe one day they will. But anyway. Thank you for your words, I read them and I appreciate them. Much love from me. <3 

[anonymous]

I don't get notified, that's the difference.
It feels good to know you're still around (I guess...? I'm not so good with words, I'm sorry. It sounds wrong no matter what I try.)
It makes me sad to hear things haven't changed much but maybe that's reality in most cases even though I wish you a happy life.
Thank you again for your artworks & I think you're a really sweet person even though I don't know you.
♥

[kotsurin]

I wasn't quite sure where to write this, but I put it here because it fit a little better.

(jeg fant ut at det kanskje var bedre å holde meg til norsk siden svensk ikke gikk så bra)
Jeg håper du har det bra. Det er så lenge siden du har oppdatert noe sted på nettet, så jeg blir litt urolig. (Jeg er ikke en creepy stalker, selv om det kanskje høres sånn ut - jeg bare elsker skrivestilen din, karakteriseringene dine, alt du skriver. Så jeg ble litt nysgjerrig på hvordan du er som person (spesielt ettersom det virker som vi har mye til felles).)
Der er ikke noe spesielt jeg vil si med denne meldingen. Jeg vil bare at du skal vite at jeg bryr meg, selv om jeg ikke kjenner deg.

Jeg håper virkelig at du har det bra.

(Håper du fikk ledd godt av svensken min (hvis du fikk en mail med det, haha). Jeg hadde tenkt å sende denne meldingen som en pm, men det var ikke mulig, så jeg sender det her isteden...)

[loki_66]

WHY!? WHY ARE BOTH OF THEM SO BLIND?????

This is beautiful, you make us feel what they are feeling and at the moment I feel like crying for both of them. Also it is the fact that the writing is hectic that it makes the feelings so real, so raw...

It really is beautiful. I have no words to describe how amazing it is. Thank you for sharing.

[dementedpierrot]

This so beautiful. I'm not a fan of Gazette and never will be, my heart lies with the older generation of jrock, but gods this is just gorgeous. I feel so much raw emotion beyond every word. I know you haven't updated this in six years, and may never again but I thought on the off chance you may get a notification of this comment in an email... You have a true gift. I hope you continued writing.

I also wish you the best. This subject hits home for me which is why I read it, and I can only imagine you pulled inspiration for it from your own struggles. Someone can't hit such raw emotions straight on the head without a first hand account. I hope you are in a safe place, and doing well.

Cheers.