Wasted Years
Easter Sunday at last~~~ But I'm still sick like hell T_T. Anyway, here's an update for all of you XDDD
Title: Wasted Years
Chapter: [5/?]
Rating: R-16
Pairing: Mainly TegoPi. There's RyoPi and RyoUchi too <3. I mentioned KoyaShige too btw. Lol *gets kicked for leaving Massu all alone*
Genre: Romance/Angst/some Crack here and there
Summary: Ryo and Pi had been best friends for half of their lives. Lately, they've become best friends with benefits. YamaPi had been quite obsessed about his relationship with his best friend and was totally oblivious of Tegoshi's feelings for him. Ryo, on the other hand, still has feelings for Uchi and is always waiting for the younger boy's return. Find out what happens when Uchi comes back from his suspension…. [ok. So I suck at summaries…please just read the story and skip this part..rofl]
A/N: I'll be using this rating from now on. XDDDD. I've been sick the whole week. I guess I'm being punished. LOL. So much for the holiday~ *gets kicked*
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Chapter 5. Broken hearts
Frowning, Ryo stood up from his seat and face the other guy. He was about to go back home but seeing as how the person seemed to be so desperate to talk to him, he decided to stay a little bit.
"Aren't you tired? Look, I need a sleep right now so can you just say whatever you're itching to say to me?" Ryo asked exasperatedly.
"I doubt it if you're going to sleep and rest if Uchi is here." YamaPi answered trying to smile. He failed at it though.
"What's wrong?" Ryo asked sensing something.
YamaPi avoided his eyes. "Nothing."
"Pi, you're not… Jealous, are you?" Ryo asked again, this time, fearing his best friend's answer.
YamaPi released a breath he didn't realize he was holding before looking at his best friend in the eye. He could see it. Even if he haven't said anything yet, he can already see the answer in those eyes. And it hurt him. A lot.
"I can't bear it… I can't bear being away from you. You're always happy when you're with him and I'm hurting…" YamaPi said not breaking his eye contact with the other.
Ryo returned his look for some time before averting his eyes somewhere else. He cursed himself, shrugged, and looked at his best friend once more, confused of what he should do.
"I'm sorry. It's my fault. I shouldn't have spoiled you from the start. Well I did made it clear that I'll always have feelings for Uchi but still… I should have known this would happen," Ryo said as he tried to make YamaPi understand the situation.
YamaPi did not reply at this. He gave Ryo a blank look, ignoring Ryo's words. This action made Ryo irritable,grtting his teeth and taking deep breaths as he tried his best to control his temper. No, now is not the right time to strangle his best friend. Not yet at least.
"And what about Tegoshi?" Ryo asked remembering their genki girly-looking member.
"Eh, Tegoshi? What about him?"
YamaPi's nonchalant reply made all the remaining patience Ryo has to disappear. The slightly muscular guy suddenly found himself pinned to the wall by his best friend whose eyes reflected anger and disappointment. "Don't give me that bullshit, Yamashita. We all know what's going on between the two of you." Ryo said through his gritted teeth.
Surprisingly, YamaPi smiled. This reaction YamaPi gave pissed the Osakan even more. "What's funny?" Ryo asked tightening his hold on the other's shirt collar.
"You're jealous, aren't you? I knew it… Well, I'm doing this for you, Ryo-chan." YamaPi smiled ignoring the pissed off look Ryo's been giving him. "I can always leave him any moment you've decided to go back with me," he added.
"You're using him to get me back?" Ryo asked his voice barely louder than that of a whisper.
"All for you Ryo-chan," YamaPi grinned thinking that this'll somehow bring Ryo back to him only to find out that it was actually the opposite of it.
"Fuzaken dayo!" Ryo shouted his right arm moving even before he realizes it.
Staring at his best friend, YamaPi held the part of his face that got in contact with Ryo's fist. He felt the blood on the corner of his lips and roughly brushed it with the back of his palm, spitting some of the blood along the way. With his lips trembling and cheek swollen, he pushed Ryo and got ready to leave without saying another word.
"I'm not the least jealous with you using Tegoshi," Ryo said just as YamaPi reached the doorway. "But I'm very disappointed in you," he added icily.
YamaPi slowly closed his eyes as he inhales, holding his breath for a second or two before breathing out to calm himself. Finally opening his eyes, he reached for the door knob and went out of the room trying to forget what had just transpired there. The tears that he was holding back for awhile now was finally able to flow freely without anyone seeing it from the darkness he was treading.
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The light sound of foot steps woke YamaPi up. He wasn't really a light sleeper but since he had just began to doze off that time; he noticed that weak but steady sound of foot steps just outside his room.
"Tegoshi…" YamaPi called out as he helps himself to sit up.
Tegoshi's head popped out from the slightly opened door and YamaPi gave the boy a small smile before holding out his arms as if a father welcoming his child from his first day of school.
"How'd you know it was me?" Tegoshi asked as he settled himself in YamaPi's embrace.
"Ore ga tensai da yo~" YamaPi joked which earned him a pout from Tegoshi.
"Tensai ja nai yo~ Tell me!!" Tegoshi whined as he played with YamaPi's shirt buttons.
Tegoshi's whining stopped when he felt his sempai's hand teasing his abdomen. His breath hitched when the hand on his abdomen started dipping inside the waistband of his pants, teasing him, promising more. Tegoshi clutched YamaPi's shirt and tried to bite back a moan when he felt the hand has stopped teasing him and instead moved to lower his zipper for greater access.
"Ok. I'll tell you about it then," YamaPi teased as he took his hands off Tegoshi after lowering his zipper.
Tegoshi blinked for a few seconds, confused and slightly disoriented from YamaPi's teasing hands and the sudden disappearance of the warmth he was receiving. When things finally clicked into place, Tegoshi started whining again this time, for something more than YamaPi's secret strategy for knowing the person outside his room without looking.
"Uhhhh! Forget it!! You can just keep it a secret for as long as you want!!" Tegoshi impatiently said before taking YamaPi's hand and guiding it between his parted thighs to his own hot flesh which is now pointing at a particular angle.
YamaPi smiled at Tegoshi's short patience before lowering his face and capturing the other's awaiting lips with his own as he started moving his hand on Tegoshi's jutting, heated flesh.
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"Tegoshi! What a surprise… Dozo~"
Tegoshi smiled before following Ryo inside the flat. Neat, he observed as he saw some files neatly stacked in one corner and some clothes, which he assumed were to be folded, on top of the bed.
"I didn't know you were the organized kind of person Nishikido-kun,"
"Of course I'm organized. That's beca-"
"--Because you're a sexy man." Tegoshi finished for his sempai.
"You got it." Ryo grinned as he ruffled the younger boy's hair. "Now Tego-nyan, what brings you on the sexy man's den?" he asked.
Ryo noted how the easy atmosphere between disappeared the moment he asked that question. It was replaced by a tense one that surprised Ryo for he hadn't imagine that it could actually transpire between them.
"I don't want to look nosy or anything but…uh… Did something happen yesterday?" Tegoshi asked, his eyes feasting with his toe nails.
Yesterday? Does he know something used to happen between me and Pi? Ryo thought to himself as he observe the younger boy's actions.
"Is there anything important that was supposed to happen yesterday?" Ryo asked back. He figured that answering Tegoshi's question with another one would be best with this kind of situation. Even though answering a question with another question wasn't really his thing.
"About you and Yamashita-kun…"
Ryo froze.
"I thought he'd be happy but it seems that… I'm wrong." Tegoshi said, his eyes having difficulty looking straight into Ryo's eyes.
"You knew about us?" Ryo asked trying to catch the other person's gaze.
Tegoshi nodded. "Kei-chan knew and he… told me about it. Well it's not really hard to figure things out with the way you two we're acting that time."
Ryo remained silent at this. So he knew, he must know that YamaPi's only using him too then, he thought.
"He's using you to get me back." Ryo finally said in a whisper as the other boy remained motionless with his head bowed, his bangs hiding the emotions that can clearly be seen in his brown eyes.
"I know," replied Tegoshi in a small voice.
He's crying, Ryo thought as he noticed the slight unsteadiness on Tegoshi's voice. When he was about to approach and comfort Tegoshi, the boy finally looked up and Ryo was surprised to see the smile on the boy's face despite the tears flowing freely on his porcelain-like face.
"I know that he's been using me all along…"
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Fuck. Why am I even doing this thing?
"Ryo-chan~~~ Hora, hora!! Kawaii desu ne~~?"
Turning to look at whatever his lover wants him to see, Ryo received a large slice of cake… straight on his face.
"Uchi!!!" He yelled threateningly as he tried to remove as much icing as he can. Uchi only laughed at him before bouncing away somewhere, probably to where Tegoshi is that time. Sighing, Ryo convinced himself that this is the best way to solve all of their problems… A vacation at the beach, that is.
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"I know that he's been using me all along…"
"Then why…?" Ryo asked.
"… I love him…" Tegoshi answered as his tears flowed even harder.
"Then you should forget him. The way he is now, he's nothing but a selfish stupid jerk."
"I will if you will forget Uchi-kun," said Tegoshi with a pleading look at his sempai. Ryo however, threw him a scandalized look as if he had just pleaded for him to bow down before Ueda.
"You're kidding me Tego-nyan~" Ryo said recovering from the shock.
"I'm not. Yamashita-san still loves you and I can never replace you in his heart…" Tegoshi said remembering the picture of the two on YamaPi's bedside table. And last night, after they had made love and all, the picture remains posted there as if reminding him that he can never be like that person in the picture that YamaPi is with. "I'm willing to give him up. And if you'll just give up Uchi-kun then you two will be happy again…"
Ryo's patience slipped at this. He wanted to be angry at Tegoshi for saying such things but he couldn't for he knew that the boy is much hurt with the situation than he is.
"Why can't you be selfish? Why not try to be happy Tegoshi???" Ryo asked grabbing Tegoshi's shoulders. "God I thought you're a self-centered person but now…" Ryo trailed off.
"Be selfish and be happy. That's an order from me." Ryo said breathing heavily. He could see the confusion in the boy's eyes but he couldn't care less. He has decided to help Tegoshi and finally be able to straighten out what happened between him and YamaPi in the past.
"I'm sorry Tego-nyan, I can't give up Uchi. I love him… But unlike you, I'm selfish cause I want to be happy." Ryo added.
Again, he observed how Tegoshi seemed to weigh the conditions and consequences. He saw the boy bit his lower lip as if he'd get the answer he was looking for by doing so. Finally after a long pause, Tegoshi spoke in a determined voice.
"Help me how to be selfish, sempai."
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Comments will please TegoPi. Lol. Teasing. Anyway, this chapter wasn't supposed to end like this. But then I told myself, why not make two chapters into one? And so I had some major changes in the next chapters because of this one. XDDDDDD. Thanks for reading minna. Again, all my fics are unbeta-ed so please forgive the typos and wrong grammars. Lolololololol. I'll try my best to fix it all next time.
Btw, sorry for thse who can't hold much smut... I just...can't...stop my hands...lol
Title: Wasted Years
Chapter: [5/?]
Rating: R-16
Pairing: Mainly TegoPi. There's RyoPi and RyoUchi too <3. I mentioned KoyaShige too btw. Lol *gets kicked for leaving Massu all alone*
Genre: Romance/Angst/some Crack here and there
Summary: Ryo and Pi had been best friends for half of their lives. Lately, they've become best friends with benefits. YamaPi had been quite obsessed about his relationship with his best friend and was totally oblivious of Tegoshi's feelings for him. Ryo, on the other hand, still has feelings for Uchi and is always waiting for the younger boy's return. Find out what happens when Uchi comes back from his suspension…. [ok. So I suck at summaries…please just read the story and skip this part..rofl]
A/N: I'll be using this rating from now on. XDDDD. I've been sick the whole week. I guess I'm being punished. LOL. So much for the holiday~ *gets kicked*
[ chapter 1][ chapter 2][ chapter 3][chapter 4][chapter 6][chapter 7][ chapter 8][chapter 9][ chapter 10][ chapter 11][ chapter 12 part 1][ chapter 12 part 2]
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Chapter 5. Broken hearts
Frowning, Ryo stood up from his seat and face the other guy. He was about to go back home but seeing as how the person seemed to be so desperate to talk to him, he decided to stay a little bit.
"Aren't you tired? Look, I need a sleep right now so can you just say whatever you're itching to say to me?" Ryo asked exasperatedly.
"I doubt it if you're going to sleep and rest if Uchi is here." YamaPi answered trying to smile. He failed at it though.
"What's wrong?" Ryo asked sensing something.
YamaPi avoided his eyes. "Nothing."
"Pi, you're not… Jealous, are you?" Ryo asked again, this time, fearing his best friend's answer.
YamaPi released a breath he didn't realize he was holding before looking at his best friend in the eye. He could see it. Even if he haven't said anything yet, he can already see the answer in those eyes. And it hurt him. A lot.
"I can't bear it… I can't bear being away from you. You're always happy when you're with him and I'm hurting…" YamaPi said not breaking his eye contact with the other.
Ryo returned his look for some time before averting his eyes somewhere else. He cursed himself, shrugged, and looked at his best friend once more, confused of what he should do.
"I'm sorry. It's my fault. I shouldn't have spoiled you from the start. Well I did made it clear that I'll always have feelings for Uchi but still… I should have known this would happen," Ryo said as he tried to make YamaPi understand the situation.
YamaPi did not reply at this. He gave Ryo a blank look, ignoring Ryo's words. This action made Ryo irritable,grtting his teeth and taking deep breaths as he tried his best to control his temper. No, now is not the right time to strangle his best friend. Not yet at least.
"And what about Tegoshi?" Ryo asked remembering their genki girly-looking member.
"Eh, Tegoshi? What about him?"
YamaPi's nonchalant reply made all the remaining patience Ryo has to disappear. The slightly muscular guy suddenly found himself pinned to the wall by his best friend whose eyes reflected anger and disappointment. "Don't give me that bullshit, Yamashita. We all know what's going on between the two of you." Ryo said through his gritted teeth.
Surprisingly, YamaPi smiled. This reaction YamaPi gave pissed the Osakan even more. "What's funny?" Ryo asked tightening his hold on the other's shirt collar.
"You're jealous, aren't you? I knew it… Well, I'm doing this for you, Ryo-chan." YamaPi smiled ignoring the pissed off look Ryo's been giving him. "I can always leave him any moment you've decided to go back with me," he added.
"You're using him to get me back?" Ryo asked his voice barely louder than that of a whisper.
"All for you Ryo-chan," YamaPi grinned thinking that this'll somehow bring Ryo back to him only to find out that it was actually the opposite of it.
"Fuzaken dayo!" Ryo shouted his right arm moving even before he realizes it.
Staring at his best friend, YamaPi held the part of his face that got in contact with Ryo's fist. He felt the blood on the corner of his lips and roughly brushed it with the back of his palm, spitting some of the blood along the way. With his lips trembling and cheek swollen, he pushed Ryo and got ready to leave without saying another word.
"I'm not the least jealous with you using Tegoshi," Ryo said just as YamaPi reached the doorway. "But I'm very disappointed in you," he added icily.
YamaPi slowly closed his eyes as he inhales, holding his breath for a second or two before breathing out to calm himself. Finally opening his eyes, he reached for the door knob and went out of the room trying to forget what had just transpired there. The tears that he was holding back for awhile now was finally able to flow freely without anyone seeing it from the darkness he was treading.
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The light sound of foot steps woke YamaPi up. He wasn't really a light sleeper but since he had just began to doze off that time; he noticed that weak but steady sound of foot steps just outside his room.
"Tegoshi…" YamaPi called out as he helps himself to sit up.
Tegoshi's head popped out from the slightly opened door and YamaPi gave the boy a small smile before holding out his arms as if a father welcoming his child from his first day of school.
"How'd you know it was me?" Tegoshi asked as he settled himself in YamaPi's embrace.
"Ore ga tensai da yo~" YamaPi joked which earned him a pout from Tegoshi.
"Tensai ja nai yo~ Tell me!!" Tegoshi whined as he played with YamaPi's shirt buttons.
Tegoshi's whining stopped when he felt his sempai's hand teasing his abdomen. His breath hitched when the hand on his abdomen started dipping inside the waistband of his pants, teasing him, promising more. Tegoshi clutched YamaPi's shirt and tried to bite back a moan when he felt the hand has stopped teasing him and instead moved to lower his zipper for greater access.
"Ok. I'll tell you about it then," YamaPi teased as he took his hands off Tegoshi after lowering his zipper.
Tegoshi blinked for a few seconds, confused and slightly disoriented from YamaPi's teasing hands and the sudden disappearance of the warmth he was receiving. When things finally clicked into place, Tegoshi started whining again this time, for something more than YamaPi's secret strategy for knowing the person outside his room without looking.
"Uhhhh! Forget it!! You can just keep it a secret for as long as you want!!" Tegoshi impatiently said before taking YamaPi's hand and guiding it between his parted thighs to his own hot flesh which is now pointing at a particular angle.
YamaPi smiled at Tegoshi's short patience before lowering his face and capturing the other's awaiting lips with his own as he started moving his hand on Tegoshi's jutting, heated flesh.
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"Tegoshi! What a surprise… Dozo~"
Tegoshi smiled before following Ryo inside the flat. Neat, he observed as he saw some files neatly stacked in one corner and some clothes, which he assumed were to be folded, on top of the bed.
"I didn't know you were the organized kind of person Nishikido-kun,"
"Of course I'm organized. That's beca-"
"--Because you're a sexy man." Tegoshi finished for his sempai.
"You got it." Ryo grinned as he ruffled the younger boy's hair. "Now Tego-nyan, what brings you on the sexy man's den?" he asked.
Ryo noted how the easy atmosphere between disappeared the moment he asked that question. It was replaced by a tense one that surprised Ryo for he hadn't imagine that it could actually transpire between them.
"I don't want to look nosy or anything but…uh… Did something happen yesterday?" Tegoshi asked, his eyes feasting with his toe nails.
Yesterday? Does he know something used to happen between me and Pi? Ryo thought to himself as he observe the younger boy's actions.
"Is there anything important that was supposed to happen yesterday?" Ryo asked back. He figured that answering Tegoshi's question with another one would be best with this kind of situation. Even though answering a question with another question wasn't really his thing.
"About you and Yamashita-kun…"
Ryo froze.
"I thought he'd be happy but it seems that… I'm wrong." Tegoshi said, his eyes having difficulty looking straight into Ryo's eyes.
"You knew about us?" Ryo asked trying to catch the other person's gaze.
Tegoshi nodded. "Kei-chan knew and he… told me about it. Well it's not really hard to figure things out with the way you two we're acting that time."
Ryo remained silent at this. So he knew, he must know that YamaPi's only using him too then, he thought.
"He's using you to get me back." Ryo finally said in a whisper as the other boy remained motionless with his head bowed, his bangs hiding the emotions that can clearly be seen in his brown eyes.
"I know," replied Tegoshi in a small voice.
He's crying, Ryo thought as he noticed the slight unsteadiness on Tegoshi's voice. When he was about to approach and comfort Tegoshi, the boy finally looked up and Ryo was surprised to see the smile on the boy's face despite the tears flowing freely on his porcelain-like face.
"I know that he's been using me all along…"
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Fuck. Why am I even doing this thing?
"Ryo-chan~~~ Hora, hora!! Kawaii desu ne~~?"
Turning to look at whatever his lover wants him to see, Ryo received a large slice of cake… straight on his face.
"Uchi!!!" He yelled threateningly as he tried to remove as much icing as he can. Uchi only laughed at him before bouncing away somewhere, probably to where Tegoshi is that time. Sighing, Ryo convinced himself that this is the best way to solve all of their problems… A vacation at the beach, that is.
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"I know that he's been using me all along…"
"Then why…?" Ryo asked.
"… I love him…" Tegoshi answered as his tears flowed even harder.
"Then you should forget him. The way he is now, he's nothing but a selfish stupid jerk."
"I will if you will forget Uchi-kun," said Tegoshi with a pleading look at his sempai. Ryo however, threw him a scandalized look as if he had just pleaded for him to bow down before Ueda.
"You're kidding me Tego-nyan~" Ryo said recovering from the shock.
"I'm not. Yamashita-san still loves you and I can never replace you in his heart…" Tegoshi said remembering the picture of the two on YamaPi's bedside table. And last night, after they had made love and all, the picture remains posted there as if reminding him that he can never be like that person in the picture that YamaPi is with. "I'm willing to give him up. And if you'll just give up Uchi-kun then you two will be happy again…"
Ryo's patience slipped at this. He wanted to be angry at Tegoshi for saying such things but he couldn't for he knew that the boy is much hurt with the situation than he is.
"Why can't you be selfish? Why not try to be happy Tegoshi???" Ryo asked grabbing Tegoshi's shoulders. "God I thought you're a self-centered person but now…" Ryo trailed off.
"Be selfish and be happy. That's an order from me." Ryo said breathing heavily. He could see the confusion in the boy's eyes but he couldn't care less. He has decided to help Tegoshi and finally be able to straighten out what happened between him and YamaPi in the past.
"I'm sorry Tego-nyan, I can't give up Uchi. I love him… But unlike you, I'm selfish cause I want to be happy." Ryo added.
Again, he observed how Tegoshi seemed to weigh the conditions and consequences. He saw the boy bit his lower lip as if he'd get the answer he was looking for by doing so. Finally after a long pause, Tegoshi spoke in a determined voice.
"Help me how to be selfish, sempai."
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Comments will please TegoPi. Lol. Teasing. Anyway, this chapter wasn't supposed to end like this. But then I told myself, why not make two chapters into one? And so I had some major changes in the next chapters because of this one. XDDDDDD. Thanks for reading minna. Again, all my fics are unbeta-ed so please forgive the typos and wrong grammars. Lolololololol. I'll try my best to fix it all next time.
Btw, sorry for thse who can't hold much smut... I just...can't...stop my hands...lol