Wasted Years
Title: Wasted Years
Author: Hime [
cess_chan]
Chapter: [11/?]
Rating: R-16
Pairing: Mainly TegoPi. There's RyoPi and RyoUchi too <3. I mentioned KoyaShige too btw. Lol *gets kicked for leaving Massu all alone* …RyoTego maybe?
Genre: Romance/Angst/some Crack here and there
Summary: Ryo and Pi had been best friends for half of their lives. Lately, they've become best friends with benefits. YamaPi had been quite obsessed about his relationship with his best friend and was totally oblivious of Tegoshi's feelings for him. Ryo, on the other hand, still has feelings for Uchi and is always waiting for the younger boy's return. Find out what happens when Uchi comes back from his suspension…. [ok. So I suck at summaries…please just read the story and skip this part..rofl]
Disclaimer: 101% disclaimed. Johnny owns them. That old guy sure is lucky.
A/N: The end is near. I'll miss this fic <3 This chap is a little bit…mushy.rofl. I don't know. That's what I thought but again, this is my fave chapter so..yeah… Hope you'll all like it. *hugs*
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Chapter 11. Because I Love You
Heavy.
That's the first thing that came into his mind even before he opened his eyes. He wanted to but then he's afraid of what he'll see so he decided to just lay there, wherever he is, and hope that the heavy object on top of him would disappear. After what seems like forever, he decided to move his arm and shift his position only to find that he's trapped.
Can't. Move. Damn it.
It wasn't long before he realized that whatever that is on top of him is not really a 'whatever' but a 'whoever'. With this, he slowly opened an eye to peek at that person on top of him. It only took him one look at that person before he closed his eye again as if afraid that the other will catch him peeking.
OK. Now I'm sure I'm dead. There's no other way for me to see an angel if I'm still alive… RIGHT??
The heavy weight above him suddenly moved and he became tense in an instant, holding his breath as if it'll wake up the angel above him. When the angel has stopped moving, he started sucking on his lower lip debating if he should let his angel know that he's awake or remain silent and pretend to sleep.
He chose neither.
But he did open his eyes and tried moving his arm, careful not to wake his angel up. When he had successfully removed his arm from being trapped between him and his angel, he slowly pushed his angel off of him and tried to sit up. He muttered a silent prayer when his angel remained sleeping even if he had moved so much.
The door suddenly made a creaking noise and YamaPi's gaze flew from his angel to Satan's Right-Hand Man standing at the doorway.
YamaPi gulped. "I thought I was in heaven. Why did they suddenly drop me in hell?"
"Baka," Ryo began. "I'm glad you're awake now." He continued in a much softer voice when YamaPi placed a finger on his lips telling him that he didn't want to let his angel know that he's already conscious. Not yet.
"Do me a favor, Ryo."
Ryo raised a brow in question. "What? We're still not OK if you've forgotten."
"I know but please, just come here. I have to tell you something and I can't move much." YamaPi hissed back.
Ryo rolled his eyeballs at this but he eventually went to his best friend's side, eager to hear what he wants to tell him. "What is it?"
YamaPi smiled slyly.
Ryo cringed in return.
"Closer."
"Why? So you could molest me? I'm telling you, I have Uchi right now."
"Ba~ka, so I could tell you what I want to do without waking Tegoshi up," YamaPi muttered, pulling Ryo by his arm.
"Ja, what is it?" Ryo asked, moving closer so that YamaPi could whisper to him whatever it is he has in mind.
- SILENCE -
YamaPi looked at his best friend expectantly. "…?"
Ryo smiled sheepishly. "I'm a tensai. A sekushi tensai… Why are you so perfect Nishikido Ryo? Aaaah~ The life of a Sexy Osaka Man indeed…"
YamaPi rolled his eyeballs at Ryo's singsong voice. "I need it. Now. Ryo-chan."
"OK,"
"And… Are we friends again?" YamaPi asked, hoping that the answer would be the one he's wishing for.
"No," Ryo began as YamaPi seemed to deflate with the answer. "'Cause we're best friends again, baka." Ryo added, playfully hitting YamaPi before disappearing in search for the thing YamaPi has asked him to find.
"Arigatou Ryo-chan," YamaPi smiled, something that he rarely does ever since he and Ryo had their fight.
Tegoshi suddenly moved causing YamaPi to hold his breath, wishing that the boy will remain sleeping. Not yet please, he prayed. When Tegoshi stopped moving again after comfortably placing his head on YamaPi's chest, he finally released a sigh of relief.
That was close, he thought. His eyes darted to the bedside table and frowned when he noticed that the frame was placed face-down. YamaPi reached for it, smiling as the memories of that picture came back to him. He stared at the picture for quite a bit before finally closing his eyes and holding the picture close, smiling as each memory of his past relationship with his best friend all came back.
"I've been really happy. Thank you Ryo-chan," he whispered, still holding the picture close to his heart. He remained like that for sometime, savoring the moment when he felt that weird feeling again that he doesn't know what to call in the past but finally realized it that moment: Acceptance.
"Now I must go for the real happiness in life," YamaPi began softly, gazing at the boy at his side whom he had hurt so much in the past. The guilt on all the things he did to the boy came back in an instant but he pushed them all away. He really is sorry about all those but he vowed to himself to never think about it again and instead, make things easier for Tegoshi from now on.
"Not only I, but so do you, Tegoshi." He whispered to the sleeping boy beside him, gently pressing his lips to the younger man's lips for a quick kiss before going back to his sleep.
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"Tegoshi, daijoubu?"
Tegoshi raised his head to see Ryo on the doorway carrying a plate of biscuits. He nodded back at his sempai before focusing his attention back on the man sleeping beside him. The only man that can make his heart go doki doki just by looking at him or even when he's not doing anything. Just like now as he lay sleeping there, Tegoshi can feel his heart beating faster from anticipation, hope and fear. Fear from being rejected again by that person he loves the most.
"Eat." Ryo said, placing the plate on the table near the bed. He watched closely as the boy slowly shook his head with his offer. "You'll need it… You don't want P to worry about you not eating anything, do you?" Ryo added, trying to convince Tegoshi to eat. He sighed when the boy shook his head again. "Ja, I'll leave it here. We'll be at the living room. Call us when he wakes up." Ryo finished, leaving the boy inside the room with his best friend.
"It's time," Ryo grinned as he sat on the couch in the living room.
"For what???" Uchi asked his lover.
Ryo turned to Uchi and pulled him closer, kissing him flat on his lips. "Nandemonai." He grinned as they drew away to get some air.
Uchi pouted. "Like hell it's nothing."
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Back in the room upstairs, YamaPi's thought echoed what Ryo has said as he ready himself to face reality. It's time.
Slowly, he opened his eyes and was blinded by the brightness that greeted him. Temporarily, at least. He hope so. Since all the lights in the room were open and Tegoshi's pouting look was the first thing he saw.
A second after he opened his eyes, Tegoshi's putting look quickly dissolved and was replaced by a beaming face which permanently damaged YamaPi's vision. Or so he thought.
YamaPi smiled back in return, wrapping his arms around the boy's waist. He let out a shaky breath as he close his eyes again, preparing himself for the next thing he'll say. "Tegoshi, I---"
YamaPi opened his eyes when he felt something wet touch his face and saw that the boy was crying. The tears running down his cheeks seem never-ending and YamaPi wanted to hang himself for making the boy cry again. "I'm sorry, I… Why? Why are you crying Tegoshi?" YamaPi asked in confusion.
Tegoshi roughly wiped his tears with the back of his hand, offering a small smile to YamaPi. "Gomen… I'm just worried. I thought I'll never see you again and that…" Tegoshi sobbed, trailing off.
YamaPi smiled. "Gomen ne, I made you worry and now I've made you cry again… I'm really the worst. Making a pretty boy you like cry like this."
Tegoshi violently shook his head at this. "I cry because I love you. So please don't feel sorry for making me cry because I'll never feel sorry for loving you, Yamashita-kun."
This straight-forward and honest reply from the younger man went straight to YamaPi's heart. He couldn't help but smile at the feeling of happiness inside him. It's as if his heart is growing and getting bigger all of a sudden. It was a new feeling for him… A feeling that he welcome with all of him… A feeling brought by the honesty of Tegoshi and his love for him.
Still smiling, YamaPi brought his right hand to cup Tegoshi's face. "Then can you promise me one thing?" He asked, his fingers tracing the path that the younger boy's tears took on his cheeks.
"Anything!" Tegoshi replied in an instant, his huge brown eyes boring into YamaPi's black ones.
"Just promise me to smile always… Because you love me."
Tegoshi blinked. "There's no need…"
"Eh?" YamaPi frowned.
Tegoshi smiled, bringing his hands on the other man's face and pressing them on YamaPi's forehead as if trying to erase the lines that appeared there when he frowned. "There's no need because," He began, locking his gaze with the older one's intent gaze. "I smile, I cry, I eat, I sleep, I write, I read, I sing… I practically do everything because I love you."
YamaPi's breathing hitched hearing this reply from Tegoshi. He smiled and opened his mouth to speak too but Tegoshi held him back, placing a finger on his lips. "There's one more thing I forgot…"
"And that would be…?" YamaPi asked in anticipation as he drowns himself on the younger man's brown eyes.
"… That I live because I love you." Tegoshi whispered softly.
This reply, along with all the previous ones, was way too much for YamaPi to hold. He exhaled, noticing for the first time that he's actually holding his breath while waiting for the boy's answer. "Tegoshi," he began again. "Can you listen to me?"
Tegoshi nodded vigorously. "Of course! I'll listen to you because I love you," he added and YamaPi chuckled at the reply. "That again?"
Tegoshi's lips trembled a little. "Are you getting tired of it?"
YamaPi panicked at the boy's 'I'm about to cry' look and immediately shook his head. "No, of course not! Are you?"
"NEVER!" was the strong reply YamaPi got from the boy.
"Good." YamaPi's features soften as he look more closely at the boy on top of him. "Now, can you listen to me again?"
"I'll listen to you for as long as you want me to," Tegoshi said in a small voice as he threw YamaPi an expectant look.
"Ja… Do you know why you love me?" YamaPi asked Tegoshi who shook his head in return. "Why?" Tegoshi asked.
"Because I love you."
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Ahhhhh!! Ahhhhh! ß Don't mind me. *rofl*
Comments are much LOVED. They're my uh… lovers *gets stabbed* XDDDDD. I really liked this chapter myself. I don't know, it just seems… at peace. Or maybe I'm just lacking my daily does of DV Ryo. *lololol* I don't know if I'll have chapter 12 as the last one… It's either 12 or 14. I have this some kind of phobia with 13, that's why. XDDDDD
Anyway, for those who have some ideas/prompts for a new fic/drabble/whatever-that-is-on-your-mind, you can tell me. I want to write something new again. Gomen ne, I couldn't write any other tego/other character fics. I believe Tego-baby is only for YamaPi. But I can write Nishikato, KoyaShige, RyoPi *I guess* But that's just err… my assumption *gets mobbed* roflmao. But yeah, TegoPi is still my expertise. Haha~ I won't promise anything but if I somehow get ideas with your prompt then I might write something out of it. <33
Again, I'm out of cash like hell. If anyone's interested, I'm selling 47 [LE] DVD, Taiyou no Namida [LE] and Weeek [LE]. I'm now clearing my cds. I'll only buy DVDs from now on. Even if I did say that I'm clearing, I still have It's my Soul [LE] with me. Roflmao. I'm weird…
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