I came to the realization tonight that I don't have a crush on anyone anymore. I'm not really sure how I feel about that. I seem to be having a recurring problem of not being able to understand exactly what is going on in my head or my heart. It's strange feeling akward and a bit out of place when I'm with me best friends, something that only ( Read more... )

It's been a while. Zak thinks that I might have a concussion, because I fell on someone's knee during ninjitsu, and still have a bit of a headache six hours later. I think that my girlfriend and I are back on just friends terms, which is ok, but I would still like to know with some kind of certainty. I did laundry, class, three hours of martial ( Read more... )

So, my girlfriend has told me that she's over the just being friends thing. I'm not really sure how I feel about this. I enjoy her company a lot, but I've kind of gotten used to the being alone thing. I don't want to lead her on, but I'm also not sure that I want to be just friends. So when she told me that she was over just being friends, we ( Read more... )

So, my girlfriend and I are no longer together. I guess that would make her my ex-girlfriend. I'm actually not all that disappointed about it. I had felt it coming for a while now, and have been wondering about how she felt about me for pretty much all summer, so I'm glad that I actually know now. And we're still going to hang out because she rocks ( Read more... )

It's been a while kids. So, I am now in the on campus apartments, and it fucking rocks. I love the kids I live with. Had a dinner party last friday, and only burned myself once. I seem to be doing ok with the whole getting back into the swing of doing schoolwork and going to class and the like. I made vegan cookies, and they are good. Before I got ( Read more... )

No one is around. They’re all gone. When they’re coming back is not up to me. The blinking cursor on the screen reminds me of the loneliness that I am feeling. The images stuck in my head of a past life are enough to make me go mad. It seems that living is less vibrant when things are seen with rows of bars obstructing the view. Admittedly, the ( Read more... )

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I recently returned from a two day trip to Tahoe with two high school friends, and a 3rd year med student. Those days were drowned in old disney movies and mah jong. I also found out exactly why it is that I can't smoke pot (physiologically speaking, anyway). Apparently, I have a problem with the THC receptors in my brain that only one in 60,000 or ( Read more... )

I just spent the last hour or so on the roof of an elementary school gazing at the stars with my friends Alex and Justin. Justin fell asleep and Alex and I talked about things. It was nice. It was one of the few moments that I actually felt satisfied with. Deep conversations on rooftops while looking at the night sky are a definite good experience ( Read more... )

I was supposed to be in Santa Cruz right now, visiting my girlfriend and staying there until monday. But, I guess that I should be used to things that I plan falling to pieces. It seems to happen often enough. Upon talking to her on the phone, she tells me that maybe it would be better if I didn't go and see her. Her brother is with her, and ( Read more... )