tonight I went to church with Katie Evans. It was so much fun. Ryan wood and michelle m. came also. I had no clue that they went to katies church. We all had a blast together. They make me laugh so much. I really miss Katies church a lot. I feel so close to God when I am there. I want more of that ( Read more... )

BASTARD!!! I am so sick and tired of Ashley! I am not sure I can handle any much more of her. She is going and talking to Mark (just to piss me off). Then she bitches at me when I play her freaking song. Oh my goodness, you do NOT own it. I can play it when ever I want. I am not trying to steal it and I will never be able to play it wel ( Read more... )

i have a question to pose... why do people lie? I mean honestly, it is the most retarded thing ever. I hung out with someone this past week. Then when they were asked about it they said we never did. Then to make matters worse, this person told a friend of mine I was with someone else. which makes me sound like a compulsive liar. This really ( Read more... )

hey... This moring I went to church. I was so tired. I could not get to sleep last night for the life of me. I went into my bed around, say, 2:15 am and I laid there until 3:45ish. I could not sleep at all. My mind was just moving so fast. I was not even thinking about anything important. It was random stuff. But chruch was good. I did not ( Read more... )

well, I got grounded for my tickets I received yesterday. It really sucks. I am grounded until I go back to school. I wonder if I get to go to church in the morning with Ashley. I mean that would be considered going out. I do not know ( Read more... )

I just receive a prank call, and instead of being cool and laughing it off, I yelled at ashley. I hate when I get onto her. I really really need to work on that. I feel bad! BUT I did not yell at her. That made me very very happy. I am kind of excited! I do not know what to do about her though. My heart tells me to stay with her and to ( Read more... )

Today started out as a good day. My mom asked me if I would like to go and pick me sister up from the airport. At first I was thinking, "No, why would I want to do that?" Then she offered to let me drive her car. So I was like, "heck yes!" I was so excited. I went to pick her up and everything went good. We were having a good time driving and ( Read more... )

I want to pose a question: Do you ever feel like no matter how hard you try to please someone you will just end up pissing them off? I feel like sometimes I try so hard to make people happy and all they do is get mad at me. Do you ever feel like you become the worse version of yourself? That a pandora's box of all the evil nasty things: your ( Read more... )

help me!! I don't know what I am doing. I am tired of dealing with everything. I feel ike life is slowing and unbearingly going down the drain. I miss being held and comforted. I miss having someone tell me they love me. All I want is to be happy and joyful. I have no where to turn anymore. I made a huge mistake at All-District and last ( Read more... )

I am so sorry that I hurt you in the way that I did. I had no idea that I had caused you so many nights full of tears and loneliness. Right now I am just not ready to handle this kind of "relationship." I know that right now we are kind of on bad terms. I am just trying to express all of my thoughts to you. I feel like you need to know the ( Read more... )