So I guess the last time I checked my journal it was the day before school started. So, you can tell it's been a long dam time. I have been getting A's in my classes and suprisginly getting along with everyone. Everyone is accepting of the fact that I am gay which is a nice change. I did have a boyfriend that was wicked awesome, it was going ( Read more... )

All I have to say is FUCK! I have to start school tomorrow. I am so NOT looking forward to it. I have to stay back for not going to school for two months LOL! I guess it's not that funny actually. I hopefully will be doing a six week 8 to 9 thing. It's where I have to get A's in all my classes for the 6 week progress report and they will get me ( Read more... )

Life is wicked good for me right now. I met someone I like a lot more then that Jesse guy in Texas. Er, way to far and just aint goanna happen. Plus This guy is a lot sweeter, honest, and studly haha. He lives in Rhode Island which is definitly not as bad and I could get there in six hours. The only reason I know that is cause He told me lol. I am ( Read more... )

I havent written in this thing for a long time. A lot has Happened. I have changed a lot suprisingly in the past few weeks. I have morals in life. I have become A stronger Person and I know who I am. I am proud of who I am now and I wont let n e one bring me down. I love who I have become and I am so happy with myself now. I quit smoking and ( Read more... )

Err I am sick as a dog and I can't sleep at all. My throat feels like its all dried up and it hurts. My nose hurts from blowing it so much. The medicine I took is tripping me out cause I am soppose to be asleep by now haha. It makes me feel better though. I hate breathing through my mouth cause then I cough all the time ( Read more... )

I am sitting at this computer and typing this drunk off my ass. I seem to be feeling a lot better. You guys out there might not know this but I am actually like an alcohol. See my dad is an alcoholic along with mommy dearest so I get it from the 2 best drunks I know! I know it sounds stupid but it really does help. Though in the morning its goanna ( Read more... )

I remembered something I never wanted to remember in my entire life. Today was soppose to be fun.  I was hanging out with my friend and my ex bf today and we all decided to go swimming after changing into our clothes. Well we got down there and we were having a good time when I noticed A guy was staring at my friend. He seemed way to old and way to ( Read more... )

It's like 5:18 in the morning right now. I dont know why I wake up so early after going to bed so late. I feel so fucking tired but I can't go back to sleep. Well thats insomnia for ya. I know it has something to do with the fact (DONT LAUGH!) that am afraid of the dark cause we got robbed like twice when I was around 7 yeard old and I was ( Read more... )

Sitting here smoking a cigerette. Dam I wish I had the will power to quit but its just to hard. I did quit smoking for about 2 weeks once and it sucked. I was all pissy and wishing I had one and then someone bought me a pack and it was all done haha. It sucks cause my dream is of becoming a singer and an actor and It's goanna be hard to sing and ( Read more... )

Well Today wasn't much talk to about. I haven't Gone to sleep yet since 9:30 A.M. Yesterday. I got up early yesterday (or to me its early) cause I had to do psychological testing. I guess it's soppose to see why I did so badly in school but I did some college level stuff so I am not dumb. Based on circumstances that have happened starting one year ( Read more... )