sorry i haven't wrote anything in a while. i love the smell of the air and to feel of the trees. everything is so beautiful when i'm outside. until i start thinking of all the bad that has happened to me. right now in life i just need affection. affection from a lover or my son that is far way. i need affection to keep sane sometimes, but i realize ( Read more... )

today i feel like i've lost everything. my head is in total chaos and i don't know what to do. i miss ian so much. when will i ever see him. my head tells me never. i don't want to die like this. this is the only thing in life that i fear and hate most of all (being alone). all i do now is sit and cry as i wait to die. i'm not ever going to feel ( Read more... )

I miss you so much ( Read more... )

I lay in the grave where you once slept ( Read more... )

Haven't felt good today. Been crying on the inside all day. i'm just really sad and upset right now. Don't dnow what to do. It feels like t'm running in circles. I need to find a way home and everything seems to be stopping me. Just once, I want to find peace. Miss Jenn and Ian. Love you two very much.

I'm blinded inside
Confusion inside my head
I wish I was dead
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In your arms I rest
Full of joy and happiness
Love You, Your the best
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Feeling alright today. nothing much going on. work and school are going good. just trying to get though life right now.

There are moments in time ( Read more... )

Nothing going on today. Just worked today. Thinking of Ian and Jenn. Haven't wrote anything today. I wrote some haiku the other day. Here it is ( Read more... )

Every night they sit by my side ( Read more... )