Why is it that it must take a loss for one to realize the true significance of something in their life? I sit here in my bedroom, alone, pondering losses both past and future. I wasted three and a half years of my life. Now, for those who know what I'm talking about, that may seem spiteful, but it's not. I never really appreciated what I had. ( Read more... )

Well...it's February 1st. I graduated about 6 weeks ago. My life has changed enormously since that event. I still can't find a job. This fact makes me a little sad inside. Instead of working and making money, I sit at home and do nothing. This leaves me to my own devices...not a good idea! I am finally coming to grips with how my ( Read more... )

It's over...I graduated. I'm really glad that I was able to make it. There's so many people I need to thank, so many that helped me keep my eye on the prize and bring my ass back on track. I left school and I went back, and I won. Now I'm back in Shelton with some of the people that I cherish the most in my life...but then there's State College ( Read more... )

Well, here we are again. After 2:00am and I'm still awake. Is this good? I don't think so, but I just really want to do well on these finals. I'm feeling better about life tonight. Just knowing she was concerned about my away message made me feel good inside, like she didn't forget about me. I don't do shit like posting away messages just to ( Read more... )

So, I'm sitting here...not asleep. I don't know what it is that causes me to lay sleeplessly in my bed at night and stare helplessly at the ceiling. It may be the impending final that I need to take at 8:00am or the three finals that follow that. It may be an overload of caffeinated beverages or it may be the fact that I miss that special ( Read more... )

As I sit here in front of the computer screen, hundreds of thoughts run through my head. I can't even keep up with the changing scenarios. Kristin comes to visit in about 4 or 5 days...I really miss her. She makes me feel happy when I'm with her. She is so very special to me. Also, my parents will be arriving, as well. This is the first time ( Read more... )

Why do I sit and ponder my life so much? It's getting to the point where I hate weekends, well weekends in State College. There is just too much time to think about school and life and such. I am a prisoner in my own mind. Often, I find myself lying in bed for hours, unable to fall asleep because my thoughts keep racing. It's a scary feeling. You ( Read more... )

So...I'm chillin. I worked on the robot for a lil bit with my peeps, not Suk though...he's indian. Well, that's not why I didn't work with him, it's his parents, they're indian, but above all that, they are going to India and Suk went home to see them off. They are going till the end of December. I wanna graduate...Chapp-E phone home. I'm sitting ( Read more... )

Well...8 days till I get to go home. Five weeks till graduation. It all cumulates here. Nine semesters in total. Seven semesters I have spent with one beautiful girl. Seven semesters we have loved each other and seven semesters we have endured the pain of being away from each other. She has given me so much. There was a time when I was asked if ( Read more... )

After 7 hours in the lab today and a total of over 20 hours in the past 3 days, the robot that my CSE 430W group has been building, works. Milestone 1, due on Tuesday, our robot must travel straight for 1-2 feet, make a right turn, travel another 1-2 feet, make a left turn and travel a final 1-2 feet and stop. And we are done...it works! Awesome ( Read more... )