Your words don't come easily no more. I wonder what you're doing every second that I'm not with you, and now I see what I put you through. I should be gone, something keeps me hanging on, this instinct, all this pain I feel doesn't phase you... it's funny what them drugs will do. And now I'm crying now, how could someone spend so much time so close ( Read more... )

There is only so much that I can do for a person. Only so much that I can give ( Read more... )

I've suffered enough. I am about to dig a knife so deep into my stomach, deep enough to rip out every tissue, every organ, every muscle, every bit of pain. My mental state can only take so much. The images in my mind are not healthy.

I promised to never break your heart. All that you do is break mine.

Why is being positive so difficult to do?

I don't want to start school again on Tuesday. This was the shortest break, ever. Already being sent assignments by my professors, not cool. Not cool at all.

Sometimes we have to remember that after a day, another day follows. If our day was the worst day that we claim to have ever had, then tomorrow can't be any worse.

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I can't believe I am awake right now, sick as I am, to go to a place that I once hated, a place that I might eventually have to go back to if I ever plan to graduate with my M.S.D.

I must really be in love.

I walk around for hours, my feet inside another's shoes. I haven't been myself for a long time now, and I can't stand this feeling anymore.

What do they see when they look at me? Who am I without my other half? I see a girl, fearful of human contact, afraid of the future, skeptical of her senses, and an unfitting puzzle piece.

Come find me.

Disgusted.
I feel so unhealthy. I feel that all of these problems could have been prevented, but I still want to indulge in old habits.