LiveJournal!! I'm getting the message we have to move to dreamwidth, but. Well. I want it to be exactly the same - the same conglomeration of you. Please tell me if you're doing this and how I can find you on there!!

As hard as everything is, I find myself every single day weeping with gratitude at least once, and continually marveling at my great privilege in community. It is humbling, and overwhelming, and something like delightful.

I'm forming a plan and I think it honors our beautiful queer family and our love for each other. Part of this plan is something I am so grateful for that I collapsed on the floor sobbing when it was becoming a clear strong possibility.

I can do this. Chins up, Charly.

Thank you all for the love. ❤️

I love you, friends. I feel hopeless and sad and completely disgusted over yesterday's election.

More to say, as always, but I only have time to tell you that I love you.

How much do you think not having the boost of Michigan (or simply knowing that boost is no longer available) has affected your confidence?

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The LiveJournal app won't let me see my own journal, so I can't go respond to your sweet comments. But they really help me, as always. Thank you.

I don't think I've ever been as sad as I was yesterday. My eyes are so swollen. I wish I could grow old without ever having to bury anyone else I love.

No time, but since I posted here that I was having those tests, I figured I should also say here that they all came back 'normal'. So. No celiac, no lupus, no thyroid issues, no early menopause... Hallelujah! Now,  back to the drawing board.

I'm going to the doctor today to discuss a number of (seemingly random) symptoms I've been having throughout the years that I am convinced point to Lupus. Possibly just subacute cutaneous lupus, but... I don't know. I don't want to be dramatic, but I'm freaked out.

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So much to do and all I really want is to sit here, read my book, and smoke joints all day. To be fair, I have had a solid hour of doing just that, and a lovely phone call with HZP, and amazing snuggles with the boy and two dogs. But there are lots of chores. I'm going to get up and do them soon.

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