IS THERE A REASON I CAN'T CATCH A GODDAMN BREAK? HOW FUCKING CLICHE OF ME TO SAY THIS BUT IS THE WORLD REALLY OUT TO GET ME? I GET SOOOOO CLOSE TO THINGS GOING RIGHT THEN *BAM*- THEY'RE OFF TRACK AGAIN. I THINK THATS WHY IM LOOKING FORWARD TO MOVING OUT IN A COUPLE WEEKS. TIME BY MYSELF, TO MAKE MY MISTAKES BY MYSELF, TO THINK FOR MYSELF, TO MAKE ( Read more... )

inspite of how hysterically wrong things went friday night, i had an amazing time with him cody. he makes me feel all warm and squishy inside. you know, like the opposite of psychotic and enraged?

(xxxplease don't get jinxedxxx)

I don't know where my head is at. Nothing seems right these days. Even if something is perfectly inline, it still seems off. I don't know what I want. I don't know where I'm going ( Read more... )

kelly clarkson's "breakaway" album fully describes what our relationship was. put the songs in a different order and you can follow the past 6 months step by step. it's ok though ( Read more... )

men are pigs. im sitting here at work and this guy, we'll call him specimen 0, who's been hitting on me for months now (hes a long-term guest due to work) decided to make his move and give me his number. now, i work in the hospitality business. its obligatory that im beyond nice to people. i cant exactly tell this guy to go fuck himself and use the ( Read more... )

i like....no..deffinitely love school, my mom, my dad (whom im missing a lot) ricky, lisa, dennis, my dogs, my job, jeans, hot drinks, when ricky cooks for me/with me, pajamas, sleep, pillows, eyeliner, cheese fries, turning down men, super fuzzy socks, the seahawks, my camera, and post-its.

i dont know whether im coming or going. im going insane. INFUCKINGSANE. he's trying his damnedest to convince me to stay. is it possible for your heart to tell you two things at once ( Read more... )

seattle it is.

because of this he hates me and never wants to see me again.

im moving on.

i absolutely hope the best for lisa. if her and i were lesbians, i think we'd be married by now...but seeing as how we're not, ill settle with good friends. i cant help but wonder if i/he/we pushed her into something she was still questioning or if she readily accepted it. i want her to be happy and comfortable and feel good about things. i want ( Read more... )

i havent had a headache this horrible since i can't even remember when. i had a migraine right after the show was over, was in bed for 2 days, nauseous dizzy and blurry-eyed, and my head still didn't hurt this badly. im at work and it wont go away. i wish i could just take enough of something so it would knock me out and let me sleep through the ( Read more... )