Remember when you drove down to Wm the day after me because we missed each other so much?  There was no AC and we spent the grossest night of out lives together.  Sweaty and sticky from the bad Chinese that made us sick ( Read more... )

what a stupid fucking idea this thing is to start posting again in order to have an outlet.  I still get overwhelmed, i still feel an onslaught of tears for no other reason then i fucking miss him.  and continually fuck up.  if ever there was a shot i felt it came and went.  when he held me and said why would i ever leave you, there was a reason ( Read more... )

Everytime I see something pretty or wonderful, I wish I could curl up with you there.  Rub noses and Hug.

i want to touch you.

I've begged, pleaded, cried, and kissed you too soon.
All the things you shouldn't do.

You've come back to me through all your disappointments
because I'm smaller but stronger then you.
Dealt with more but remain happier then you.

You told me it died because I was weak and burdensome.
And now you tell me all you ever dated were girls who needed help
or ( Read more... )

Its odd going back and seeing your emotions so fresh and raw when you've had some distance.

There are things I keep needing to say and the person I want to say them to is no longer and option. Off and on. But never really...

You are right, perhaps I get it. I steal your heart so many times, but you are always held back by the results of what ( Read more... )

The kids got here today. And it was exhausting constantly reaffirming them and redirecting thier behavior. I feel like it seems contradictory, or maybe that I have problems. Because many of the things I tell them is not ok I do. I say soemthign sucks, but I'm supposed to verbally coach them out of that into expressing thier unique emotions that ( Read more... )

God, who are you?
Why are we so ridiculous?
Come back from geirgia.
come back
this is crazy, lets keep it up

I simply love talking to brody.
He gets me, and always has insightful responses.
And there is always plenty of laughs.
It's comforting.

I spent today at the pool with two of my best friends from high school, I've missed and hardly seen since transferring from tech. So we caught up, in all the adult ways: what are you doing with your life now? What grad schools are you looking at? and all the girly ways: Are you datign anyone? Who? what are they like ( Read more... )

I am at work. Today I have been required to actually do work. And requested to stay late ( Read more... )