hey, i think i'm going to school on monday if i'm not too weak, my mom said i probably won't go to rumuda til the end of the week

Okay, so this whole entire week has sucked.  I wish I could go back and change it and make everything better.  On the bright side, I've reached my short term goal weight!  I'm actually lower now.  (95 lbs was the short term goal, if I have access later, I'll post a picture, but the chances of that are getting slimmer and slimmer as I type, and I'd ( Read more... )

OMG OMG OMG!  Although these days haven't been the best, I have awesome news!  Rusty and I went shopping yesterday, and when I was at Buckle, the 24's (00) were big on me!!! EEEEEK!  I am so excited!  I bought one anyway, its not HUGE, its just a little big in the waist.  But still, it went from being REALLY tight to being big!  Plus, this morning ( Read more... )

Wow, having a Saturday off was really odd. I usually work the entire day, which keeps me active, and way to busy to think about food. So, once I got up I cleaned my room until like 2:00 and then my mom and I went to go cash my pay check. Afterwards she wanted to stop at Inn and Out Burger so I sipped a diet coke while she ate...I told her I had ( Read more... )

How come all I wanted was for the year I was sixteen to be a happy year?  That's all I wanted was to be happy and successful, but I would have settled for just happy.  I am miserable, worse than that if its possible.  I try to keep myself as busy as possible and get involved with new things, but nothing seems to really help.  I wasn't even good ( Read more... )

I'm starting a ten day fast tomorrow, because I need something to feel satisfied in.  If I can do this, I can at least find some immense satisfaction within myself, plus I'll look better.  Anyone care to join me?

Ohmigosh.  I've been so depressed these past few days.  Everyone thinks its all my fault and blah blah.  Fine.  Its not that I want help or sympathy or anything, but it makes me mad that people think that you CHOOSE to have an eating dissorder.  I don't want to get fat.  I want to get skinnier.  It something I can actually control, because lately, ( Read more... )

I turn 16 tomorrow! :)