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En Tauto Nika
Citymusing's right. My latest tat. A declaration of victory. But, it's more than that. It's a proclamation of my willingness to fight. I have said before that this was not the fight I was expecting. It has been up to this point a fight for myself. No longer. It is now a fight for my mother ( Read more... ) -
Oy Vey
Rain says I can't control crazy people. She's right, of course. Doesn't mean the sucker punch doesn't hurt like hell, though. Rain and I haven't always been friends, ya know. That's a gift of adulthood. But there has always been one member of my family that has always read my heart and trusted me. No more. It seems my mother, so twisted with guilt ( Read more... ) -
Fail
Dang. Retreating from drama fail. Gah. -
Dippin' my toes, taking a risk
Just my 2cp ( Read more... ) -
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My roommate said the most amazingly outrageous thing to me this morning as we were commuting in. She said, "You may have any emotion with or without reason. You may choose to express it or not. It won't change how much we love you ( Read more... ) -
Rough Poetry
Ever have a song that doesn't exist pop up in your head complete with lyrics and melody? It's weird.
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I am scared you know. Flat out terrified, really. Scared of the depression that killed my father. Scared of how much of him is in me. I'm not a substance abuser. I'm not depressed. But I can see it. I can see it sneaking around the corner watching me. Waiting. Trying to convince me again and again to withdraw. That I'm not fit for human ( Read more... ) -
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The last thing my uncle said to me when he dropped me off at the airport five hours early was, "Take care of yourself." I said, "I always do ( Read more... ) -
Wounds
You know what my wound is? I believe that I am so over-emotional and such a drama queen that to ever express what I really feel is only ever an intentional plea for attention. To really ever tell another person how I feel is to annoy then at the very least. Is selfish and inconveniencing; and generally will lead to a huge blow-up caused by my own ( Read more... )
