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I wish
When I was three years old, I almost died from asthma ( Read more... ) -
One line feeling
Heart full of pain, head full of stress... -
Nothing will change
Who is the real me? I don't even know anymore. One minute I'm laughing, and the next I'm crying. One minute I feel alive, and the next I feel like I'm suffocating. I don't know why I try; I get discouraged so easily that I think it's better that I never try at all. Prevent the heartache that comes from failing all the time. I'm convinced that no ( Read more... ) -
If Only
When people use the expression "you could be hit by a bus tomorrow", I say "I don't care." But what I really mean is, "If only." Because I don't know how many times I have to write, "I'm tired" before I'm really fed up with it all. I know I'm selfish. But at least I'm honest. -
Bored
Me now
Where do I see myself in ten years? I don't know.
What do I want to do? I don't know.
Do I have any goals? Not really.
What's my dream career? Don't care.
Am I excited about the future? More like terrified.
Me thenWhere do I see myself in ten years? Writing books, owning a dance studio, living in Charlotte ( Read more... ) -
Alone
I deleted my Facebook. All my text messages. I've decided I want to be alone. Completely. I'm so desperate to live on my own, it's not even funny. I don't want to see anyone. I would work by myself if I could. I'm tired. There's a lump in my throat as I write this. Who am I kidding? I'll never get excited about anything again. There's nothing to ( Read more... ) -
Sick
Have you ever been so sad and anxious that you feel physically sick? Like your head is spinning, your stomach is turning, you can't breathe and you feel clammy? That's how I feel right now.
I just found out my mom might have bone cancer. Yes, I googled the symptoms. Sue me. Anyway, she has another xray scheduled for her fracture, and I'm scared to ( Read more... ) -
Where I Wish I Could Live
I want to live inside my head...
I'm tired of the real world
With its series of tragedy and disappointments
Boredom and aimlessness doesn't exist
In the place I want to live
My mind is the great escape
When its not plagued with thoughts of sorrow
I can be what I want, do what I want
Imagination is limitless
What am I doing here?
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Nothing Feels Real
Today my dad woke me up to tell me my mom was in the hospital. My initial response was pure panic, but I learned she only banged and sprained her knee after slipping off a ledge at the gas station. My first thought was, "I knew she had bone cancer! I knew it, I knew it!" Because she's been having pain in her knee for almost two years now. I thought ( Read more... ) -
The Hate is Real
I'm the most selfish person I know. I'm just so consumed with my pain that I can't acknowledge anyone else who is affected by my depression. I can count a good number of people who I've ignored over the past few months: grandma, Dede, Kiki, Shontray, Devin, Josh, Jammy... all their phone calls and texts have gone unanswered, because I just don't ( Read more... )