Yes, I know I broke my promise about writing every day. I completely forgot. Anyway, that's not the issue. I'm worried about (how can I say it?) someone who used to be very close to me. Friday I wrote a letter to him about why we couldn't be friends anymore. I tried to be as nice about it as I could and I even told him that I still cared about him ( Read more... )

I guarantee, sincerely promise, honestly cross my heart that I will try to write every single day, even if I have to write two sentences on how much I hate green beans (which I really do detest). I've been so busy lately. I'm relieved and somewhat saddened that the first semester of school is almost over. Shocking, huh? This is the first time in a ( Read more... )

I'm finally home! My parents and I spent Thanksgiving at my grandparents' house in Jamesville, North Carolina. I haven't been there for almost a year and it was good to be back. It's something about being around your family that really makes you happy. It's like this big, warm bubble of love. Grandma really outdid herself this time. The food was ( Read more... )

Here I am, back where I was. Not too surprising, right? I mean. I knew this wasn't going to last long. It was good while it was there, but now it's time to let go again. I don't care. If it doesn't last forever, then it might as well be fake, and I rather not have it at all. To tell you the truth, I hate myself. Yes, sad but true. I can't stand who ( Read more... )

Small beautiful bones and elusive strength

Soaring through the sky with wings of grace

Fragile movements responding delicately to music surging

Fingers softly plucking the cold air

Unsowed seams pouring out on the stage

All exposed and spilling out

An acrobat without strings spinning on her toes

An artistic athlete showing his passion

And a small smile ( Read more... )

Some things are just difficult to understand. You can start off doing something, and while you really don't want to do it, you try to keep a level head and keep telling yourself that it's going to be fine. And for that moment it is. But the next day you go back to doing that same thing, with a more postive attuide than before because everything ( Read more... )

If I wanted to, I could be happy.

I could change the way I think. I could actually TRY to
fight the darkness that consumes me and keeps coming back
for more. I could start doing my homework. I could spend
more time around people.

If I wanted to, I could be happy. I could have a good life.

But I can't.

I don't want to change the way I think and feel, ( Read more... )

"The Soulmate relationship is the passageway into human spiritual maturity. It is not a dream or fantasy that few will ever find. The Soulmate relationship is your heritage, as sure as the love I give to you. It is your completetion. In this process of awakening and union, you will also find your relationship with Me."

The Messages from God

Even ( Read more... )

I don't know why my mom does these things to me. I understand that she was worried, but did she really have to take the issue to drastic measures? As you can see in my previously recorded entries, I was in this sort of depression, a short period of my life where I didn't talk to anyone, not even my parents. Apparently, my mom sent an email to my ( Read more... )