so he is the biggest ass hole ever. its been like 5 days since he broke up with me and he hasnt even had the balls to say hi to me. not even a simple hi. he wont even look at me! im supposed to be the one not wanting to talk to him cuz he dumped me! wtf..we went out for a year and all of the sudden we break up and im not even alive to him anymore? ( Read more... )

so we broke up. a year relationship and he ended it in a 3 minuate conversation on the phone. he couldnt even do it in person. coward. he also waited 3 days to tell me. he hadnt called me, come over..nothing for three days. so there i sat, like a little bitch and thought about him for 3 days wondering what it was that i did to him. wondering why he ( Read more... )

its nights like tonight that make me realize..i really dont fit in with anybody. im not a smoker. not a big drinker. i like parties but i dont ever really know anyone so i stand around looking kind of dumb. i dunno. im sick of not fitting in with people. i dont want to smoke (ew) and i dont want to get drunk off my ass to fit in with people..but it ( Read more... )

people make me sick..and now im looking forward even more to getting away from god forsaken desert vista.

i just want everything to be ok. i want everyone to be happy. I want to be happy. for once in my life, i just want sumthin good to wake up too. I want to know before i fall asleep at night,that i will wake up to sumthin that will make me happy.I want to not be able to predict how shitty my day will go. since everyday is the same. i dont want to ( Read more... )

woot..i love this song:0 ( Read more... )

new years eve=my favorite night of the year. last night was fun. it sucked really bad at first becuz deborahs mom wouldnt let us leave cuz of all the drunk drivers on the road or sum bullshit like that. so we were really bummed. but the night really got better as it got later. cuz we had tons of visitors. we were partying hard pretty much. lol not ( Read more... )

ahhh im so sore today! last night me and debbie worked out :o). it was fun yet tiring! but we were out in the rain at like 10 30 doing all this stuff! it was awesome! her being the little athletic cheerleader that she is showed me all these different work outs to do. so now i know what to do instead of just running! soo yeah mel comes home today! ( Read more... )

so today i was sitting here thinking about all the shit that went on at the beginning of the break. and i was getting all fired up and pissed off again. its just so unfair how i got blamed for EVERYTHING. when it wasnt even all me. and how anthony turned all this shit around on me and made it seem like he is the victim. when in reality im the one ( Read more... )

merrrry christmas! :0) im not really in the spirit this year but thats ok. i had a nice morning! Santy was good to me this year!! i got lots of money and stuff for the mall and my lucky perfume and curious. smells soooo good. i got a buncha other little things as well. My favorite gift was a little charm i got for my charm bracelet. it a pink flip ( Read more... )