my days are getting longer and longer, everything else is just going down..

i havent cried like this in a long time, really, as much as i cry.. i have different forms of crying.... everytime i think about jay, i cry. its getting to the point where i seriously just miss him, i mean i miss everything, he was the first guy that i was ever actually comfortable with.. as far as talking, or being sexual and stuff, i never ( Read more... )

i havent really been writing anything lately, i'm sorry, for some reason i have been very scared to say how i feel about alot, i dont really know why. i am just at a time where i have no idea whats going on, and in a few weeks, or days if something changes, i dont want to be reminded of it, i went through that before and i deleted my whole journal ( Read more... )

i was supposed to go bring something to jay tonight and when it got time for me to leave, i literally got so sick, it sucked so bad... i mean i was just nervous and i dont know why.. i never get nervous.. like ever, but lately with him, i have been, i dont know whats going on.

i feel like things are changing, and i hate it. ive probably talked to jay for 10 minutes total since sunday and i hate that, seriously.

i feel like shit right now, all i wanna do is talk to jay, i called him and he didnt answer so i hope he calls back soon.

maybe i will explain later, but i doubt it.

my journal needs to be redone so bad. this layout is getting so old.

i'm going to lay here and write in my livejournal, like.. THATS WHATS UP! don't ask ( Read more... )

i've never been so heartbroken in my life, i am not 100% sure i can handle it.

happy new year everyone <3

i took some pictures of the fireworks because i am a loser and i take pictures of everything.
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