so we celebrated our one week aniversary thingy last night. it was AMAZING!!
we really don't remember all of it..yeeeeeeaaaaaaaa
i start work wednesday..i'm nervous.

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she says she's no good with words but i'm worse. barely stuttered out. "a joke of a romantic" or stuck to my tongue. weighed down with words too over-dramatic. tonight it's "it can't get much worse" vs. "no one should ever feel like.."

i'm two quarters and a heart down. and i don't want to forget how your voice sounds. these words are all i have so ( Read more... )

i have a reputation of being a whore..i like it. i don't give a fuck what anyone thinks. i'm going to be me, enough said.

ryan and i are doing great. i do love him. more than you could ever imagine.

i now remember why i stopped going to parties. bonnie + alcohol = NO BUENO it's funny. micheal got out the same day i did. crazyness. jail freakin' blows. i've lost soo much weight but i still like huge..wtf is that about?! i've finally got a reputation here in the lovely town of springtown..a whore. i think it's funny..me a whore?! that's like ( Read more... )

ryan IMed me and left his number saying to call him. so obvioulsy i called like that second..it was awkward and weird. we used to talk like three or four times a day..and then nothing for a month and a half almost. supposedly he's been trying to get a hold of me this whole time. he said that he's going to call me later..funny, i don't think he's ( Read more... )

ryan's online right now.

well..he's mobile.

i IMed him and he never replied.

i'm going to his best friend's concert on the 23rd.

it's suppose to benefit the hurricane victims.

i don't know if i should go..

because i think he has someone else.

and if i go and she's there..

i'll MOST DEF cry..then beat her ass.

i don't care who she is..he would be ( Read more... )

i was called a whore a total of four times today. i don't understand it.

just because i'm single and out having fun..makes me a whore?!

i've totally blown my reputation here.

but none of that really matters..because i'm happy.

finally got THE letter in the mail the other day.  they want me to pay eight hundred dollars or do the eight nights in jail. i don't have the money and i'm not going to spend a week in county.

i hear talk of a new sheriff..and how he wants to clean this town up. so he's going door to door.

i don't want to run..because that makes me seem like a ( Read more... )

october 15th is ryan's birthday. a loong time ago, we had made plans to hang out and go get some tats. before IT all happened.

i've been so happy for like the past month and then it all blew up in my face. ALL of it. and now i have no one. sucks.

i pierced my tongue.

and yea..it looks amazing.

hurts like hell though.

i met a guy from myspace like a week ago.

we're dating. it's going ok.

i've met a lot of cool people here in springtown.

sucks though..i don't think i'm going to be here long.

i got a new cell..817 532 2477

comments would be nice. picking up the phone would be better.

i miss ( Read more... )