you know it doesnt matter who it is, it NEVER fails. i always offend someone. isnt that some shit.

im obviously not ready to start dating again. which sucks, because i thought i was.

gah, i think im just pushing myself away from...it or something. hell i dont know.

its just like one mintue im all flirty and fine and shit.and then im making up ( Read more... )

im so freakin bored.

i need a dvd player. so that i can watch the o.c. in peace.

im falling for ryan, and i dont like it.

im putting an end to "im sorry".

ive lost 6 pounds, so far. go me!

im very content with myself at the moment.

ive dropped 2 relationships. and im a better person for it.

Your opinion doesnt matter to me. no exceptions.

sorry to ( Read more... )

so ryan isnt mad at me anymore. and im so happy. ive freakin' known him for like forever, it would suck if something so silly would end our friendship. But It Didnt!!

if i ever get to pick up dani, i think im going to stop by and suprise him. he would freak, and i would love it. hah i havent seen him in sooo long. like ever since i left cleburne. ( Read more... )

im fighting with everyone. ryan, kristi, randy, everyone! it sucks.

and lately ive realized how pathetic i am. for real.

nothing is going to bum me though. because im in the best mood.

i plan on staying this way. no matter what you say.

Im 19! Well, it was sucky at first. But then my family and a few friends made it great. Ryan called me and played “brace yourself” by howie day on his guitar and happy birthday. I thought it was so cute because he learned how to play that song. How sweet is that? I think im going to start “talking” to him. I might actually start dating again. Who ( Read more... )

so. like none of my friends remembered my birthday. i guess because theyre so busy with their own lives. but damn..i would make time. my family threw me a suprise party friday. it was great. vadim asked me out...to go see a movie tomorrow. how sweet is he??? of course i said no, i always say no. i should work on that. i love him though. like he ( Read more... )

so my grandmother is in the hospital. shes not doing so great. lung cancer. my whole family is here...ALL of them! its crazy. i mean it has its advantages...meh.

i remember one time when my grandmother was beating the crap out of me because i skipped church to go hang with johhny. i kept wishing she would die. be careful what you wish for, huh. ( Read more... )

at the moment im hanging out with kristi. last night wasnt as much fun as i thought it would be. josh wasnt even excited to see us. what an ass. i got to see dani and marcus...i have missed them so much. but ugh, they had jeremy with them...hes so freakin ugly, like a monkey. omg, im such a bitch. meh.

i got to see becca too, she had the coolest ( Read more... )

you know whats really funny? is when people are like only three feet away from you and they still whisper shit about you. hahhaha...its so damn funny. no really it is!

fucking bitch ass family. i swear im going to end up some kind of serial killer because im going to kill all of these bitches.

i need help. but meh. i dont want it. i like the way ( Read more... )

Last night was like the best night ever. I swear. Ok first Randy finally called me, well texted me. I have missed him so much. Im going this summer to see him and its going to be freakin great. Then david found my purse, that has been lost for like a week. And that means that I now have two packs of cigarettes. Then zach, davids friend…the one that ( Read more... )