Grr at school! After next friday...I AM DONE WITH MATH! I thought I had to take one more class but nope! I only needed a half credit and this term gave me that, I wont have to take another math class until College, fucking go me! English I still need 1.5 credits in...I could have english done this year, then I need .5 in Am hist, .5 in Econ ( Read more... )

Im cold. Im so fucking bored, I dont want to play Half-life because Its boring without Jess, and the other game Id play I need a credit card for and my father is procrastinating. Im also fucking in debt ( Read more... )

You know, Jess wrote me back last night, and the E-mail was pointless, it kinda pissed me off, not at him, just in general. I mean I asked him like 4 questions and he wrote me back and repeated the E-mail he sent prior to that. It isnt like I can call him or IM him and ask him whenever I want, things arent like that anymore ( Read more... )

I just got out of bed ( Read more... )

He doesnt understand how hard it is. He doesnt know how much I just want to tell him how much I miss him and how much I love him, he doesnt even seem to realize that there...is something.

Fuck! see see, now I dont want to say goodbye, and Im trying not to...talk really cause then he'll say he has to go...and...hmph! And he wont talk to me after tonight and....what is going on?!

oh and now he isnt even talking to me, he's just there. And cant say anything...fuck me! Ugh! Dammit! What if things are different after this break? in a bad way? I dont know if I can successfully hide my feelings.

FUCK! What is wrong with him?!! Jesse signed on his other SN (The one where he doesnt have me on block ) and he's talking to me, not about anything, he just told me to get in bed and nows hes just joking around...but dear God, does he not understand how hard it is for me not to just pick up the phone and call him? and now he's talking to me? ( Read more... )

I just tried to take a nice long, hot bath but it was a failed attempt, I lit the candles, drew the bath, turned on some Oingo Boingo, and I made it through 2 songs and I had to get out, I dont know if it was the heat or what, I just couldnt sit still. And of course Oingo Boingo always reminds me of Stewart, and I was thinking about how it was when ( Read more... )

I just watched Amy's Orgasm, and part of the movie made me think, are there really guys out there who believe that if a guy treats you badly that he isnt worth anything? That you never ever treat a women badly, Im a girl and I dont even know if I believe that. but seriously, whatever happened to chivalry ( Read more... )