In times where everything seems to pile up and weigh you down, and drama and sadness, doubt and anger are prevalent and happiness seems fleeting...these are the times that test us. So...stand against it together. Support one another and stay strong.

I feel weak because I can't help everyone...how I wish I was Superman...

Sometimes you want to tell your friends when you really feel like crap and there are things running through your head that you wish weren't there. Sometimes, however, you need to just suck it in and tell yourself,"This is YOUR problem. Suck it up and handle it."

I guess it's that kinda sometime.

I don't know what I should do...I just don't know...

Some people say,"Hey, at least your ok, that's the main thing," in regards to my accident. I'm thinking, "I guess...but if something worse had happened? Could it have been a blessing i disguise..?"

I'm not sure if I want a break or not ( Read more... )

Now...would be a good time to do something bad to myself...

I am...sorry.

Sorry for being a bad borfriend.
Sorry for not being a good friend.
Sorry for ever falling in love.
Sorry got not being able to control my feelings.
Sorry for not being who I want to be.
Sorry for allowing my will for falter.
Sorry for not...being happy.

I just...I just...want to be happy. Why can't I?

I am miserable because my heart is torn and my fear is heightened, my loneliness is at a peak...

Since I have the evenings free on both Friday and Saturday and I start my fall semester on Monday, I'm up for anything this weekend. My folks and other family are headed to 'frisco w/o me, and my g/f is leaving me to go party with her two bff. So it looks like me and the dog and cat are hanging out unless anyone else has something in mind.

My life consists of studying, working, games, working out, TV, doing chores and thinking about the future. I don't go out as much as I'd like, and I don't see my friends or girlfriend as much as I would like. It gets depressing and sometimes lonely. It's a give and take situation, or a gain-this, lose-that thing. I can have more fun...but I ( Read more... )

I invited my closest friends to my family's summer party on the 25th, and it looks like no one is coming, save Jan. That's discouraging, especially seeing as how I invited over a month ahead. I don't think I want to invite people anymore. This is way I never do birthdays for myself. Boo ( Read more... )