surgery tomorrow. can't sleep. trying to think of anything but whats going to happen but i can't help it. i talked to him. thank god. i dont know if i could have gone through with it without talking to him. of course he didn't say what i wanted him to but i expected it. we talked for a bit and it was nice. oh well. im going to try and sleep again ( Read more... )

my fucking 18th birthday. i could not be more excited to spend my birthday with the people i love and care about and could have never lived or loved life more without!!!!!!!!!! you know who you are and you mean the world to me!

"Don't be so scared, we will not lead you on like you've been doing for weeks.
So you're selfish, and I'm sorry.
When I'm gone you'll be going nowhere fast"

love that song. it just fits what im going through right now. weekend is good so far. not sure about what im doing tonight but i know its going to be AMAZING!

so today i noticed a big lump on my cats next and it looks like a tumor but the doctor says that he was probably in a fight and so he has to have surgery asap and its going to cost $550.00 and so my mom of course said do the surgery so hes in surgery all ( Read more... )

my moms best friend since she was 12 is dying, her brother in law is sick and her dad is being moved into a home. i just am sad about everything. i finally went to see her best friend and she's known me my whole life and always been so nice and tried to get me gifts on my birthday knowing that she couldn't afford it and i just took it for granted. ( Read more... )

So...Russell just left and I sware he's just the coolest, funniest and sweetest guy ever! He always makes me laugh no matter what. Whether its at myself or someone else. lol. God well whenever I see him or talk to him I realize just what I lost when we stopped seeing each other. Well I'm happy and he's happy so its all that matters ( Read more... )

i got so wasted last night! ah...let the good times role.

I just can't wait til this weekend. It's going to be so much fun I just know it. Long Beach better watch out because Andrew and I are not your average duo!

best weekend ever!!! i seriously can't explain my feeling right now! im loving you and loving life!!!

"This is how it’s been, this is how it will be ( Read more... )