gotta love my mood swings when i decide to tell the world to fuck off and decide to stay in on a friday night and not do a damn thing other than escape to my boyfriends house just so i can have a quiet place to sleep. i hate how when i am in these horrble mood swings, the only person who can really make me feel better is the unmentionable boy. i ( Read more... )

Things aren't getting any easier with the unmentionable boy, but for the time being I am just not going to worry about it. It's not like I'm married or anything. And it's not like I can figure anything out, so I'm tired of trying. I just don't think I am made out for monogomous relationships. I just can't do it. I'm in love with everyone, and it ( Read more... )

......So i don't know when the hell everything got so crazy, but all of a sudden he's all I can think about and it's all my brain will do. I made this crazy detour last night at three in the morning just so I could hug him and say hello and find out if seeing him would do anything crazy to my heart. It didn't.. but nonetheless, I woke up this ( Read more... )

last night was one of those summer nights i wanted to have. sitting around an apartment talking, then moving out into the outdoors. walking around, block after block, talking about random things that only we could come up with ( Read more... )

he's so different from the friend i had in my head. the friend who i used to spend countless hours on the phone with, and who made me think and wonder what the hell was going on in his head. the friend who used to call me every day, even though he had nothing to say. i used to think he was so great. but i really don't know who he is anymore. we ( Read more... )

i felt like cool shit when i picked up my brothers ipod and figured out how to turn it on and listen to it. but now i'm feeling stupid again because i can't get it to stop. the music on there isn't all that interesting and i don't want it to sing to me anymore!! i'm going to be like erica and flush it before long ( Read more... )

grades are in. two As, three Bs. nothing too exciting, nothing too shocking. in fact, it's just about what i was expecting. i'm not dancing with joy or throwing a fit, i'm just content with it. and happy to know that school is finally over for three months ( Read more... )

this morning started out crazy. i had spent the night at my boyfriend's house, and while driving home, my car spun out and landed in a ditch. again. this happened just a few months ago, when i hit a patch of ice and spun out. but this time it was my own damn fault, but we won't get into that. it scared the hell out of me, obviously, but luckily ( Read more... )

school has had me so stressed out that i completely forgot to mention this small fact ( Read more... )

where did my brain go? it is gone. i am so brain dead. i am so glad school is almost over. i don't think i could handle any more than two days.

i want this summer to be everything i want it to be. does that make sence? because it makes sence to me.