Now that the dust has settled and my temporary fix is no longer present; I can look at this with clear eyes ( Read more... )

to all who have doubted me. Thank you for not believing in me and my abilities. Thank you everyone who has ever called me ugly or useless. Thank you all of you who told me to kill myself. Thank you for putting me down and making me believe i wasnt amazing. Thank you for telling me how horrible of a person I am. Thank you to everyone who has ( Read more... )

Raise your glass ( Read more... )

im so over all of it. feeling like this. i dont deserve it. not anymore. why cant you just make me happy. why cant i be enough for you?
i have such a hatred for everything right now. i want to break windows and doors and faces. fuck all of this.
im gonna kill someone or myself.

go slow...

i feel this extreme sense of creativity that is leaking out of my pores. its almost like i am lusting to create. yet my brain is so scattered that i cant focus my thoughts on one thing. i have an overwhelming feeling of confusing and insecurity. almost as if i dont get all of this built up artistic energy out of me i will explode ( Read more... )

im so sick of all of this. its not who i am. or who i want to be. im suck and tired of the drugs, the lies and all the deception. call me anal, call me crazy, but i live here too. and i dont see why everything i do has to come into question, especially when im usually the one cleaning up after everyone. blow your money on drugs and alcohol. see if ( Read more... )

last night/this morning was fucking insane. i dont even know most of the shit that happend. yager bombs like crazy dancing on stages, after partys, throwing up my brains on the way to lehigh...and back, people at the apartment untill 8 in the morning, blood on my ice tissues ( Read more... )

i am fuckeddd up. tonight was fun, it was nice to go out for a change ( Read more... )

A Wish ( Read more... )

when is this sadness ever going to end. when is this need for self and perscribed medication going to stop. maybe it wont. maybe this is just how i am, how i will be untill the world stops turning ( Read more... )