Its been literally years since I've written in my live journal...I can't believe I remembered my password.

I'm all grown up now, with the love-of-my-life, in college getting an education, and finally confident in who I am...which brings me to the first subject of my random blog.

In having "found myself" after a long period of soul searching I ( Read more... )

To those of you who read this please read my blog on myspace. 
http://www.myspace.com/beth47940
I think it's actually worth while to read...unlike half the shit I write on here.

I worked 1-11:30 today. We got killed! I wanted to cry! Stupid races!  A ton of drunk ppl came in and ppl were all whiney and shit. I was so ready to leave by like 8. lol. Nick worked with me tonight. He did specialty by himself after 8, he did really well. He was calm, as fast as he could be, and really cool. I didn't like him, I know he's still ( Read more... )

I can now legally drive. Well, with an adault in the car. But hey, it's a step foward. I'm gonna practice driving, I'm decent already, then as soon as possible, I'm going to take and pass my driving test and get my own car. That would be f'ing awesome.  The only thing is I've had my permit for like 3 days now, and my parents haven't let me drive ( Read more... )

I turned in my 4-H projects today. I got all but one done...needlecraft...those of you who know me, know that's not really for me anyway. But its done! all except for foods...that's friday. I'm making a bouche de noel...no clue if that's spelled right. In fact I know bouche isn't cause if it was it would be "mouth of Christmas" and that's not right ( Read more... )

I want to do that right now...just lay w/ some one I care about and forget everything...that'd be awesome.

Softball tourney's today...we lost, and I got burnt. That's a first in a long time!  I never burn...Anyway...we lost.

Golf starts monday...I was planning on going w/ Lacey, Beth, and Katie in the morning, but I can't...I have work Monday and ( Read more... )

It's late, and I have to get my lazy ass out of bed before noon tomorrow, and yet I don't want to go to bed.

Work sux! Like always. I am now openly telling my managers they don't pay me enough to care. lol. and that after golf season I'm getting a new job. I've worked there for a year, and I know how to do everything, can work whenever they want me ( Read more... )

It's the 4th! yay! lol. I still don't know what I'm doing. I was going to go with Julie to Lacey's, but then my mom changed her mind. She said it's the last time I'll be at home on the 4th of July. And since it's our last year as a family then she wants us all to be together. *rolls eyes* Every year, on every holiday my mom says, "this is the only ( Read more... )

I'm so confused. Life's so confusing...

"See this mountain not move an inch now, even though I'm trying so damn hard."

I move foward, I see the progress I've made. I'm a better person than I was, at least I think I am. I'm happier...for the most part.  I'm almost content with life. Not with my life, but the way the world works...the fact that my life ( Read more... )

I'm kinda bored. So I decided I'd update. I'm on here way too much. I worked 28 hours this weekend. I kno illigal, but shh. They're making it look like it took 4 instead of 3 days. It sucked, but I volunteered for the extra hours. I stayed at Amber's house Friday night. That was fun. Julie was there until 10. We hung out w/ her sisters in the pool ( Read more... )