I think I've become the mellowist person I know. I used to get riled up pretty easily or stress over minor things. Now... there are things that make me angry, certainly. But not to the degree it used to. Now I'm more likely to just look at a situation and decide if it is worth doing something about and if there is anything I can do about it. I ( Read more... )

I've often said that I will refuse to call myself bard until I have earned the title - not by my own measure but by the acclaim of others. For my persona and my time period that's a pretty bold title to claim and I do not feel like a bard. I know I tend to make light of the things I've done (and the people nodding in agreement can shut up now) ( Read more... )

After bawling on my dog for a bit tonight (she retaliated by licking my face with great concern) I think I've figured out one the biggest things that this disorder has changed. I'm scared. I spend every day afraid to some degree or another. At my previous job I was so frightened was I almost paralyzed to inaction. Yeah, my work there sucked. ( Read more... )

So I just posted about how insecure I was feeling, especially in regards to work. Today I got a mini performance evaluation. Perfect score on everything and some very nice comments. I've also been getting more responsibility at work and I finally feel confident enough to handle it. So, despite having a seizure on Friday, they're giving me more ( Read more... )

It's time for my monthly self-esteem crisis already. I had a seizure on Friday. I was just pushing myself too hard. I didn't sleep well and then I went to that after-work event anyway. Figured I'd get through Friday, take some ativan, and sleep it off. Well, I collapsed while at home for lunch. My seizures are different now that I'm not on ( Read more... )

Been busy. Moved into my new apartment this past week. I'm still setting up, but I have a deadline. Two weeks until my grandma comes to visit and I need to be all unpacked by then! The apartment is great... smaller than my last one, but it has a really intelligent layout and tons of space. There's a back deck with a storage closet I can put my ( Read more... )

Dad is in the hospital. He's got a mild case of pneumonia but he's also having heart irregularities again. They're keeping him overnight and will be running some more tests tomorrow. That's all we know right now ( Read more... )

I have an apartment! I've put down the deposit and applied. I just need to get them some more info and I'll finally have my own space again. It's a one-bedroom with a den so I should have plenty of room for all my projects. It's on the second floor and there's even a storage nook on the balcony where I plan to keep my armor. The location is ( Read more... )

I stopped posting here. It was because I didn't want anyone to know what was going on in my life, as things got very, very bad. After someone pointed out that I've fallen silent on this site I thought about whether I wanted to pick up posting here again. I think I do. It doesn't have the post length restrictions of some other social networking ( Read more... )

One week ago, I started a new medication ( Read more... )