well...yeah its all over now and i still dont know what to think ya know? it was just something i had to do for myself and in the end i got hurt by the one person i thought would support me.yeah that support surely didnt come and now i feel hurt.it all started with me making a choice of dropping out,that came to me cause i think i want to get on ( Read more... )

.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................intresting? not really, its kinda like how i feel inside at the moment.i havent been the most excited person lately. plenty of news ( Read more... )

hope,its really this little bird on this really cool lighter my mother gave me yesterday.it really made me happy,something i had almost forgot had exsisted.i've been seeing much of my lighter lately and everytime i see it,it makes me feel worse and worse,my thoughts are pretty blank right now and i feel nothing but pain and agony,i also feel ( Read more... )

well today has been especially boring so far my phone is still on its fucked up rampage i swear to god i hate living on this side of town cause there always fucking up something:| it just sucks most cause i cant even talk to desirea...miss the shit outta you if your reading sweetheart...my friends MIA so far no call ofcourse cause the phone is ( Read more... )

well what can i say?she is the fucking most amazing woman ever....yup my babe you might know her as desirea but i know her as babycakes :"> lol.its been a while since i updated this thing,for the simple reason that this pc sucks major assage,but this is what happened since last time.........me and desirea got back together after some major fighting ( Read more... )

RYEAN AND DEZ FOREVER!

-ryean

hmmmm yup i dont really know what to think right now.i'm just worried about desirea she was maybe getting surgery today,i'm guessing she did she hasnt called me all day.i'm worried about her alot,i think i'm more worried cause i dont know what the fuck is going on,she didnt wanna tell me why she was getting surgery,but shouldnt i be good enough to ( Read more... )

wooooo! i'm fucking pumped right now well i'm gonna be this whole fucking week,you wanna know why?because friday is fucking lamb of fucking god thats the fuck why.its gonna be fucking the shit thats all there is too it.i'm gonna try to get the car so ummm i can go and pick up my lovely esposa desirea and then i can go see the show.oh i might take ( Read more... )

well yeah its been awhile...hasnt it? my stupid browser fucking sucks ass.But yeah things lately are pretty alright things are going good between me and dez lately they werent but now there great hopefully i just hope i get to see her soon,and stuff.Alot of shit happened since i last updated,my friend chinkass birthday passed a week ago we partied ( Read more... )

man this town is really boring what do ya know it fuckin blows really.its been a while since i updated this stupid thing i wasnt gonna do it but i'm bored and i have nothing else to do with my time.everything is going really great,theres not even much to say as a matter of fact.i just wanted you people who actually read this to know that i'm still ( Read more... )