I have never loved anyone more.


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sometimes i have weird dreams where i have to decide whether or not to donate a kidney to save the lives of people i care about.  and i always decide to do it.  and then, when it's all done with, they're always mad at me.  like i was trying to use my kidney to manipulate them.  like they would rather die than feel like they owe me anything.  ( Read more... )

Crazy good times.  I was excited for Thanksgiving break, for the relaxation, for the old friends, for the opportunity to just have fun and not worry about anything else.  I was not disappointed.  There were creamer shots and stories, snow, rain, Rochester gray skies.  Things I've done a million times, and things I've never done before.  Enough ( Read more... )

 i sit in my car, in the parking lot of a bank that is still too groggy to unlock its doors.  the window's open; i'm sharing my hotcakes with the seagulls.  "why don't you go to the ocean?" i ask them.  the chill of the morning frost catches my attention, retorting "why don't *you*?"  and so i understand, and i feel less alone.

 it was my last shot before calling the school social worker.  still, i used it reluctantly, because words are power and power corrupts.  "come out from there and finish your science," i said.  "just like peter parker would do."  magic.  i'm going to teacher hell.

that maple tree we sat under is still stubbornly green.   maybe it's not just us people, and sometimes even the trees have trouble letting go.  perhaps i'll meet you in winter-  when there's nothing left to hold onto.
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and i'm turning off the flash
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yay for the long weekend.  yesteday i went on an adventure to pa with steph and her friend michelle.  the purpose was to take pictures of autumn leaves and this collapsed bridge that she thought was cool.  we ended up wandering through a forest and overgrown railroad tracks and such things.  there were all sorts of neat things to discover.  we also ( Read more... )

 today was crazy, but fun.  the head teacher in the class had to go to a CSE meeting today, and i'm her sub, since i'm always in the room.  but they were supposed to send up a sub for me, so that there would be someone to mainstream two of the kids into their math class while i was doing our phonics program with the rest.  and one of the most ( Read more... )

so.  laura came home for the weekend.  yesterday was uber awesome.  we went to powers farm market and went in the teepees and did the mini haunted hay ride.  and apple cider.  then we went to pet world to look at puppies & then to perkins with our moms & becca & her mom.  then we went out to boulder coffee because laura wanted to find a consolation ( Read more... )

"he's not really getting much out of it," she said, "but he's coping ( Read more... )