So yeah Hi, I'm still alive! Still in Aurora. I work from home now which is pretty sweet, mostly in that I can roll out of bed in my PJs or less and there I am, at work. Been in therapy, which seems to be helping. I'm still nutzo of course, but at least now I KNOW I'm being nutzo and can hopefully probably maybe try to stop myself from acting so ( Read more... )

Okay, since now a couple people on the f-list have posted, I will too!

Go to www.fetlife.com and join/post/participate and enter to win kinky gifts from Santa!

Here are some weird pics I took last week at the gym.

www.studiojaz.com/portfolio/FitPro/

Coming up on midnight Sunday, I'm driving around with a my sister, her roommate and a friend. The friend is Tamil, and we heard about the demonstration downtown. By the time we got there, the protesters had moved off the Gardiner, so we headed to Queen's Park.

I have never seen so many police in my life.  Dundas, University and Queen's Park Blvd ( Read more... )

My arms are tired from reaching out for help. They've been stretched out for so long, struggling to reach something solid to tether myself to. Finding nothing. No one.

I'm not getting the support I need. I hardly get any. My family ignores me except when it suits them. My sister's boyfriend views me as a nuisance. My sister and her roommate make ( Read more... )

I had it all blocked out for awhile. I thought I wsa moving on... but no, I was just masking what happened. Things I'd forgotten are flooding back to me, and its almost too much to deal with. Maybe it is.

I was up most of the night crying. It'd been a couple weeks since the last night like that, when he was still in court. I don't know what made me ( Read more... )

Inspired by falcngrl

Step One:
Make a post (public, friends only...whatever you're comfortable with) to your journal. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____on DVD") to really big ("All I want ( Read more... )

When I met C, I thought it was love. We shared so much, and differed in just enough to make it interesting. He was as much as a Master as I had dreampt about for so long, and I was at a point in my life where I was ready for real slavery ( Read more... )

I wish I had someone to talk to that I could be completely honest with, besides C of course. I'm allowed to be open in my journal, but its the only place I can be. Even then, I feel like I need to censor myself ( Read more... )

I <3 C. But I'm also kinda... gay, at least according to these results. And my own admission. I am the 'worst lesbian ever', afterall.


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