i feel relieved. weight is off my shoulders but now i feel like my heart is sinking. i wonder if i've been too dramatic and maybe i am immature. but whatever because i'll figure things out soon enough.

the philippines was amazing and i am riddiculously thankful that i went on that trip.

being back is really fun. i go out late and come home within ( Read more... )

dear live journal ( Read more... )

ALo!

sigh, i have missed journal...ing. haha but since this is public i have to put the cague version.

work has been fun lately and i'm starting to kinda make friends. more people have found out that i am 17 which leaves me apprehensive but it's okay because at least they know the truth.

next month (LATE in the month) i am going to take my ( Read more... )

dear journal. i can't remember the last time i updated. i have found this to be a common occurance with this lj bit. the last entry was place while i was upset. today i am not. yay for progress.

update- birthday was nice. i'm glad it happened. money is nice. i'm glad i have it. being sick is lame. i miss being able to eat.

about this whole being ( Read more... )

" i feel more like a stranger each time i come home ( Read more... )

i need :

- a revival of sorts

things suck lately. bring back the goodness.

i've been listening to muse... well , the more lively stuff. i forgot how good they are. and i really need new music cause what i have isn't cutting it for now. i want to go to a weezer concert. my entries aren't very articulate. i messed up a lot over summer. school is ( Read more... )

fucking that green day song is on and i'm sooo annoyed... why do they have to be all wanna be young and political? why can't they just go back to dookie days ... shit. lol. i haven't updated in awhile and now that i've started i'm pretty annoyed with it so i'll do a quickie.

i need to get:

+ a new eyelash curler
+ more jeans
+ new guitar strings
+ ( Read more... )

... so much for that whole straight egde summer. i broke that 2 days after my last post. oh well, i don't always get trashed so fuck straight edge. it's not me baby. haha bring the sex, bring the drugs, bring the alcohol, and we will dance on roof tops from dusk till dawn while epiphanies race through our minds causing nostalgia for a place we've ( Read more... )

ohhhh summer is feeling like calming sunlight flowing through me. i'm glad all of this happened.

and as i've previously said, i do plan to change. and i've been inspired. so ghp isn't just about body it's about everything. i need to plan out small things because i just want to be different. not to put myself down or anything but i just think i ( Read more... )

I'm told that I'm a victim of obsession
That's what my friends say
Oh I'm a fool for having ever let [him] tempt me

Well I turn pale when [he] walks by
I am lost in [his] eyes
[He] is always on my mind
[He} is always on my mind

[He] glances over but [he] keeps on walking down that street
All I can do is hope that [he] is thinking of me

i like that song. ( Read more... )