went to school yesterday...sat in class...found out one of my best friends died. Travis i will miss you forever...and i know we will meet again in heaven. Im happy your in a better place and are an angel but im broken hearted and depressed that i will not get to see your wonderful smile or celebrate your next birthday with you. I want to you please ( Read more... )

How does it feel when the only comment you have of you in the bathtub is a mean one? It must feel terrible. Perhaps you should kill yourself ( Read more... )

::SIGH:: these past days have been...errr gay. Some good things but more bad things have been going on. Im feeling torn and all that other stupid shit. You'd think after like a year I would have something new to bitch about. I dont know whats wrong with me...im feeling drained. Really really lifeless...like i just dont give a fuck about anything. ( Read more... )

::SIGH:: new layout...hope you all like it. My moms mean...i hate today.

THE HURT IS NEVER ENDINGi dont love steven, i love richard ( Read more... )

my apologies if those pictures offended everyone...this is my new entry.

Dear Family ( Read more... )

fuck today, i hate today. I hate everyday...i hate richard...i hate thanksgiving...i hate my family...i hate my life...i hate me ( Read more... )

twat a slow day today. gosh it was like going in slow motion all day...i just wanted to go home and sleep. I have to type my essay today...you know that one i made up about richard...YEAH...
OH I LIVE A LIE!
does anyone remember that song by default? called live a lie...good song, wonder twat happened to them. ::sigh:: Have to work like ( Read more... )

people will forever disappoint me..
the hurt is never ending...

...hurt me...

sigh well just as I guessed, Richard flaked out on me. BASTARD...he wanted to me to feel like shit. Mission Accomplished. Pretty weird that Im updating my journal from work right now. I brought elisha some coffee and yeah im just waiting for it to be 11 so I can go back to school. Highlight of my day yesterday, Eddy called me Rachel...What did I do ( Read more... )