I am so busy I haven't been journaling. I was showering this morning and livejournal popped into my head, I forgot about it, and paper journaling too. I am doing millions of things and at the end of every day I feel sooo good. Right now I am going down to Tiburon to an intentions workshop that my church is doing and then later I'm doing a spoon ( Read more... )

I was just talking to someone I hadn't seen in a while and I love conversations with her we just talk really well. And I kinda caught her up on the past couple months of my life and by the end of it I was jumping out of my skin at how good my life is. On the whole it's amazing. I can nit pick at whatever I want but damn it's good. I'm sober, I don' ( Read more... )

Us Alchies are scared cats. When something scares me bad enough I jump out of god's will and do SOMETHING I can control. Sex, shopping, smoking(that's usually the first one I'll think of)eating etc. My will is bad for me These things done out of fear (fear of what? I don't know)cause me large amounts of pain and later frustation out of repeating ( Read more... )

Focusing on the depressing side of things is a fun filled past time of mine. Recently I keep hitting myself with things that are sick, not the woman I want to be, using people, lying, shit like that. Soo I'm a fuck up. But this life is learning, a chance for my mind to see something else, something I was blind to yesterday. But the repetition of ( Read more... )

And while hate seeps from my pores ( Read more... )

So I went to young people's and I was getting in somebody's truck who had leather seats and I ended up falling out right onto the ground directly on my bad hip. That's is upsetting, and it hurt really bad and it makes me want to take a pill and make it feel better cuz it still hurts 4 hours later. It's scary because after 7 months of being on ( Read more... )

I really want to go to Japan ( Read more... )

I had a pretty awesome day I was of service in multiple ways, then I got out of my head and had a good conversation and kicked it with one of my ladies. I deleted myspace, which is awesome and i won't be egotripping anymore. Then I went to a meeting and got a commitment so I finally have three, then I got home and talked to Holli and I was on the ( Read more... )

So I don't want to complain I just need to state some shit and maybe my confusion will lessen. So I hate Myspace and it's eating my soul but I can't delete it. I just found a bunch of cats I used to skate with and Boi my favorite Graf B'boy of the millenium that I've known since middle school and some other mice that I used to hang out with when I ( Read more... )

I am very disturbed because I have done everything suggested to fix my ipod and it won't work. It makes me very sad. And I'm going to a meeting an hour and a half early and i totally want it for that ( Read more... )