I'm tired.

Tired or trying and trying. Tired of not trying.

Tired of pretending.

Tired of making it work.

Tired of doing my best to keep it all together.

My baby is three today. My entire world changed three years ago today ( Read more... )

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"There is not one big cosmic meaning for all, there is only the meaning we each give to our life, an individual meaning, an individual plot, like an individual novel, a book for each person ( Read more... )

Let's play the why am I not asleep game... I'm going through a vicious cycle right now where I am tired all day, drink caffeine then can't sleep at night. Part of it is I've been having so many nightmares that I don't want to sleep. The weird thing is my nightmares have gotten so repetitive that I was getting bored in them so lately they've been ( Read more... )

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I've never thrown myself into loving someone whole heart, unconditional, unequivocal. Never ( Read more... )

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It's certainly been a long time dear journal. I've never been good at keeping this sort of thing up. I feel it's important, its helped me in numerous ways. So much has happened, I am so different. In a lot of ways though, still the same. I'm drawn back to my journal because I'm depressed and its a tool to help me manage ( Read more... )