The truth is that I just want to be held at night. I want to be held at night by someone that wants me there, every night. And more often than not when I turn off the light I curl up by myself in a big empty bed ( Read more... )

It occurs to me that I have not written in any journals since before discovering that I am pregnant. I find it odd as its a huge life moment. I feel like I'm really on this huge cusp of everything changing but at the same time if feels like its not really happening most of the time. I started feeling the baby moving only recently and every time I ( Read more... )

Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company ( Read more... )

left out and gone to vinegar.

This week I had a really disturbing dream that felt like a movie. In it I was a little Asian girl with two boys my age. Somehow we ended up in this old cabin. We were trapped there and started descending into madness. We became convinced that we needed to kill on another. I somehow broke out of the spell but they did not. It was very graphic though ( Read more... )

“Physical experiences, lacking the joys of love, depend on twists and perversions of pleasure. Abnormal pleasures kill the taste for normal ones ( Read more... )

You can tell by a look, by the slightest clue
Can the night ṗull a blink of an eye
Well then we'll say what they say
And we'll do what they do
But it doesn't mean a God damn thing
You can listen if you want, you can listen if you don't
Get a talk, yell and even sing
Everybody now

Loneliness
Depression
Weight loss

That's all for now.

You ever just take a good look at yourself and realize that you are absurd? Just abso-freaking-lutely absurd.

Life is feeling soulless and bleak lately. I know a lot of it is just the normal winter blues. I keep fantasizing about quitting my job and running away to travel the world. It seems like such a waste to me, living life in such a boring manner. Basically I'm getting up going to commuting, working a job that has lost its appeal, commuting home. Wash ( Read more... )