getting tired and bored. the weather is so lovely though. it makes me feel good when the sky is gray and the trees are dead. the chill in the air makes me happy. but i am starting to notice how dull everything in this city is and that it is really getting to me. i am gonne change colleges to move things in a quicker motion so i can get the fuck out ( Read more... )

i'm pretty surprised that Gorgoroth isn't as well known in the black metal scene like other bands. they do have their problems with the law which usually fucks them up but their old albums with The singer Pest are some serisouly intense and real black metal.

I saw Nine Inch Nails saturday night and i will say it was truly an amazing show. they played songs i've always wanted to see. like Eraser, Burn, And Reptile. and they played a lot of their good new shit. I must say it was Epic. one of the best. Queens of the stone age were also very fucking impressive. i'm tired so i don't sound as passionate as i ( Read more... )

drinking is the one thing that gets me when it comes to smoking. since i quit i'm fine but when i get drunk it's almost impossible. so i decided to not get drunk until i'm confident i can without smoking. but you know what i said i was gonne quit smoking and i have quit smoking so i give myself a lot of credit.

my birthday is this coming wednesday and i'll be 23. i feel really weird. i remember when i was turning 16 and how cool it felt. now i have nothing to look foreward too except cheaper car insurance, a possible wife and kids, a career, a house, fancy car, and so on and so on. i remember when i was turning 16 i was for sure gonne be a fucking rock ( Read more... )

well, it's been three solid days without a smoke. i know you don't have to say it; I RULE. Karl is also quiting smoking, you believe that? he hasn't smoked either. a few hits here and there but still that's amazing for someone who smokes two packs a day ya know. so i don't want to hear all you bitches crying about how your so addicted. if Karl can ( Read more... )

drained ( Read more... )

bought some new cds within the past couple of days which makes me feel good ( Read more... )

it was very liberating to say those nasty things to you today. it was a long time coming and i had let you stomp on me for too long. it appears i get the last laugh. so i guess good luck in pursing your boring, cold, lifeless, spoiled, uptight conservative life. at least i'm a good person and am trying to live my life to the fullest.

Kevin has been shoving a lot of awesome death metal up my ass. it's amazing.