i really miss you today.

i have to work the next fuckin 4 days but it's groovy cause i need the money i have a lot of bills that are due and i have 0 dollars. i'm screwed. oh well. i got wasted all weekend long but sunday i felt it kicking my ass. i still had a good time though.

it seems my time has turned into a lone man standing at a misty graveyard looking at tombstones reminding him of times of sunshine and sin, wondering why everything had decayed in front of him and turned to dust, the sky was cracked and wet filling him with joy for the fact once he had burned down the world and his heart was more powerful than a ( Read more... )

Batman Begins was a really kick ass movie. i'm glad i took you to see that for your birthday. Dinner was really good too ( Read more... )

the more i have been talking to you the more i am curious about your life. since 4 years ago after our painful split i hated everything about you, I, and him. but now i after reestablishing a friendship i notice your life has become a little stagnant because of him. you don't seem like you go out and destroy the world like some of us. i want you to ( Read more... )

sometimes i think my girlfriend is a fucking numbskull. but i think that about most women for some reason. oh well, hail me.

so there i was, rocking the fuck out at warped tour. even though i hadn't slept and i was until last night at 12. so that was 36 hours with no sleep. real gay. but the bled and dillinger escape plan fucking tore that place down. dillinger was one of the craziest show i have ever seen. the last time i saw them they were amazing. but this time the ( Read more... )

i love being me. i see so many fucking fake people now it's sickening.

it's been awhile since i been on the computer but we got ours fixed which is cool. so anyhow, i'm finally getting over someone which feels good. at first it sucked because i was missing the good parts but now all the bad parts have been coming to mind. so i'm starting to feel relieved ( Read more... )

feeling a lot better than what i have been lately. a lot of chaos went down in the last two weeks and i feel good. i guess i needed to let loose some anger and it worked. finished my grant shit today for school. we'll see how that goes. chow

what the fuck have i done to myself? seriously, i fuck up everything in my life that i touch and that i love. i'm so tired of being sick and tired and i need to break away to escape to leave behind everything and say fuck this shit i need something better, i need to find something to destroy the feelings inside me, i need something. i fucked it up ( Read more... )