today i was wigging out cause i didn't smoke or anything. but i realized that i have destroyed everything i've ever wanted. i ruin things. i don't know how. but it happens everytime.

home, i visited you the other night in the mild black air beneath an empty sky, it was a brief visit for i felt lost in a sea of memories that kept bringing me joy but then also drowning me. i wish i could come back. my heart is roaming new lands and under new skys. my soul feels free but crystaline with sorrow. lost. lost. scraping against time, i ( Read more... )

well, as usual i'm tired and depressed. notmuch goingon except a hairline fracture to my wrist. i really miss lindsey right now. been thinking about her a lot lately. i might try to make things right with her. butstill. imight now be happy if i did that.

"we will never die, beside you in time"

the party last night was pretty cool. Kevin, that was the first time in a really long time that we didn't talk shit to each other the whole night just some of it. we need to hang real soon brotha.

when the fuck is there gonne be another tool album?

"Yes I am alone but then again I always was, as far back as I can tell
I think maybe it's because, because you were never real to begin with
I just made you up to hurt myself, and it worked. Yes it did"-NIN

real men listen to black metal.

jeff lalonde is was good to see you last night. we need to get drunk as soon as possible.

standing alone in a city of dust
life surrounding is dead
the sky is falling and the earth is crumbling,
ah this warm feeling
of bitterness and rage
comes and goes like sores,
should i keep watching
or retreat to home
where there is nothing
but my pain waiting,
i think i'll watch
set fire to these relics
of a world once promising,
i no have a place

well i'm at my mom's house. doing luandry and just hanging back. not really much going on. she' up north so i have the run of the place. i hate not hanging out with my homies as much but it really isn't my fault. i think some people are turning their back on me which i don't know is just another paranoid delusion or what but i feel it going on and ( Read more... )