work has been real stressful. i hate working shit jobs so i can go to college but it must be done. some of my family have went through hell "real hell not crybaby hell" to be as successful as they are today. i'm not quite there like they were but i know the feeling now. but i'm content because soon i'll be what i want and i can leave this decaying ( Read more... )

the power is gonne be shut off for awhile i think which is real gay. i've been listening to a lot of eyehategod, cult of luna, and wumpscut lately. so yeah i'm officially alone now. must keep going.

why am i so discontent with everything?

i'm finally updating. i've been so busy moving out, hating myself, and rocking the fuck out. i have to get my computer this week from the house so i can start updating again. i'm sorry to those that wonder why i haven't been around. i'm just trying to get my shit together so i can start enjoying myself again. i've been in a dungeon of sadness for ( Read more... )

so many faces i have looked into
felt an electric current
scour through my body,
injected love wasted feelings
nails and teeth
primal lust
a moments passion,
back to that
a heart open
but it's just an empty bedroom,
lovers
mostly i didn't love
lovers
some still have my heart,
this body feels like an empty tomb.

fucking snow, i was loving this warm weather. but that cunt mother nature had to come fuck it all up. it's ok though, i had some really insane sex last night, breathtaking.

my stress levels keep rising each day.

all i have been doing is work and school. it has been making me pretty lonely. but i guess it's good for now. have things to take care of ya know? i feel tangled in a web. ah fuck it.

times are gonne get real bad coming up. looks like i'm gonne have to make some fast changes with my money management and such. sucks huge balls but it most be done.

have to buy my mastodon tickets this week.

Anyone see amityvile horror yet? i was wondering if it is anygood>?

man oh man, it seems like i'm alway involved in crazy adventures. i love it, always something crazy happening. my life has such weird random events. well, got to go to work soon. peace.

i can't wait until school is over so i can destroy the world. karl i'm looking at you pal. it's on

i smell weed, i think my brother is home.

boredom.