my cousion died...yesterday....
it hurts so much...i wish could drink, but i cant.
thats all

-cilly

years upon many years of my life.. emotionaly ive been sufferig with pain on the inside mentaly and physicaly!...the question would be when will it end???

3 weeks ago i left my job! i wont lie it casued alot of stress..it was kool to work there but a hell alot of stress to be around just after moving and worring about money..

i quite i was feeing ( Read more... )

first off, thanks to everyone that wished me a nice vacation! it meant alot!

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ok im off for my vacation! c everyone in 4 days! have a great weekned! GO ITALY!!!

-cilly

Happy 4th everyone!!!!! have a lovley day! i leave for Florida in 2 days! yay!!!!!

one i will say that album sucks! but on another note!  i deleted my last journal entry cuz one i dont remember typing it. 2 it scared the shit out of me! i've been batteling many demons and emothions lately,... wich i guess i would like to share.. i feel closer to this community then anywhere. last weekend i pretty much drank my self to nothing.. ( Read more... )

 im dead insinde , yet im not... im just plan out scared. no fuck yhaty im dead inside.. and if you care.. u will worrie about me.... im not good, not mentaly healty, why .. yo really want to know nwy , for the past 2 years ive been addicted to booz, and drinking and been told i have to survie on my own. i work at fucking mcdonalds... fucking ( Read more... )

so DN wouldnt load on my computer the last past 2 days,... right when i was was going to say IM BACK!!!, things are going ok over here... little rough, but ok, still searching for that second job to help finance U-C, deffy soon since we started opperations up even before we have a site... as of right now, were supporting a band in GA with there new ( Read more... )

here is my question how hard is it to get into tattooing?? eh  i think it wold be a great first job, and mcds as my parttimer ! ......  so if anyone has anyinfo to lend to me...please do,  money wise, ideas of how to go accross to starting and gettin a place to hire me!  ..ok im off time to celebrate a bday!

late have an amazing weekend!

-cilly

so we will take it back to tuesday nite., im gettin all nervuous and shitty feeling, why its my sisters bday, what does that mean,i have to see family, .
you may ask  why is that so wrong??

cuz ... i blam some people i was going to see for being where im at now..  my dad to be more direct..

but i realized alot as wed went on, i woke up , still felt ( Read more... )