It's been a crazy summer. And not exactly the good kind of crazy either. I've had alot of interesting revelations. Some which benefit me and some of which are consequences for some of my actions. Not really something that I like dealing with. It means that at some point I really fucked up and I have to go about fixing the mistake. I've fixed them ( Read more... )

I totally effed up in doing it awhile back but I'm back into the kick of things. On all areas of my life. Which is nice ( Read more... )

This is it. I'm taking a vacation from my life. I just can't deal with it right now. Everything pulls me in different directions and it's stressing me out. My life has lost it's balance. I spend so much time trying to keep everyone else happy that I completely neglect myself. It's not fair that I have to make everyone but myself happy. Shouldn't ( Read more... )

I can't get Brady out of my head. I think about him too much. It just doesn't seem fair. We were onto something. On the brink of something good. Throughout the years I've loved him and thought he was my best friend. He told me a lot of things I wished I heard sooner. Things I kept waiting on him to say. He gave me answers to questions I was too ( Read more... )

I have a date this weekend. I'm excited and nervous. Excited because he just seems like an overall good guy. He has his shit together. He's funny and sweet. And he's so flipping hot haha. Anne saw a picture of him today and her first comment was "Damn he has a hot body." He sure does hahaha. Anyways, I'm nervous because of the same thing. And it's ( Read more... )

It's kind of crazy when you look back on life and see all the changes one goes through. Life twists, loops, breaks. It's impossible to stay in one place for long. And live life as a routine. It's more than sleep, eat, and work. It's learn, love, hurt, grow, and so much more. This past year alone has a long list of changes. It doesn't stop there ( Read more... )

I'm so scared it'll happen again ( Read more... )

Paramore-Stop this song ( Read more... )

I don't understand myself. So how can someone possibly understand me? I don't act like I understand everyone else either. All I can do is take what people have said to me, analyze it to the best of my ability, and then store it later for further use. People have no idea how much they contradict themselves. And don't want to admit to using ( Read more... )

Sometimes I can't fake it anymore. Sometimes I can't help but think about the people who hurt me. The thoughts that I push to the back of my mind. The thoughts that come out at random times. In the middle of the night. Intoxicated. Sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating. Literally losing my breath. Like there's not enough oxygen to make my heart ( Read more... )