Will This World Ever Stop Shitting On Me?

I Surely hope so. It seems like every time I try and get ahead or progress my life forward, some kind on nonsense has to pop up and prevent me from achieving what I am attempting to accomplish. My employement for instance (which is the big and aggravating problem at the moment). I get hired by McDonald's ( Read more... )

For almost a year and half, shit maybe longer, I have been unemployed. Surviving day to day just barely. And up until four months ago, trying in vain, to support a monsterous and long-standing heroin habit by stealing, selling, manipulating, lying, begging and panhandling. Now that I am clean, I have been able to try and turn my life around, a full ( Read more... )

FUCK THE SACRAMENTO SHERIFF'S AND POLICE!

These stupid nazi-gastapo pigs need to fucking realize that they are merely PUBLIC SERVANTS! My roomate and best-friend just got hassled for an hour and a half by the stupid porker-minions for nothing! He went to the grocery store to cash in the recyclables from our house for gas money and for cigarettes ( Read more... )

What is wrong with this country? I want to move to Italy and live in Naples with my family. I want to live in a country that actually has a culture. Not just celebrities. All of these People magazines and E! tv channels make me so fucking sickened! But what can you do? Just try and ignore it all and dig deeper for something more meaningfull. ( Read more... )

No excuses, explanations. My love will forever be passionate and with never relenting strength. In other thoughts...

I am so fucking tired of feeling like I am a teenage black boy walking through Arkansas circa 1952. I am constantly being stopped and harrased by the police in this stupid city and beyond. Since when did Sacramento become such a god ( Read more... )

I am sorry.

I have been in just a fucked up mental state for the past few days; especially with the adjustment to my new medication. I have been reading over my posts and I have been an asshole, in some areas, NOT ALL. I am lonely and miserable but I didn't mean to take it out on you guys, I love you Kitty and I love you Jasmine and I am sorry. I ( Read more... )

One. I don't blame you for shit Jasmine, I didn't know everything is about YOU! And Kitty I didn't know that I was fucking "preaching to a choir". I must have misunderstood what the point of liveJOURNAL is. I thought it was supposed to be an online fucking JOURNAL!!! I KNOW WHAT LOVE IS AND I KNOW WHAT TO BE IN LOVE IS! The truth is Jasmine I do ( Read more... )

I am so fucking tired of being alone. Jasmine has a boyfriend and nobody wants me. I know that I love Jasmine, truly and whole-heartedly. What I don't know is if I want to be with her so bad because I want her or because I don't want to be alone anymore. I am just tired of being so painstakingly lonely. I cry almost every night. I haven't felt the ( Read more... )

                          I May Finally Have A Job!

After looking for a regular job for the past, i don't know how long but too long, that's for sure. I may have a job at... McDonalds! I know I know, not exactly the dream "career" but hey, it's a fucking paycheck! You know? In other news. My mother seems to be finally realizing that I am really ( Read more... )

If anyone really knows me, they know that one of my biggest idols is William S. Burroughs (other than Kurt Cobain and Sid Vicious). I found one of the coolest sites called the Ghost Of William S. Burroughs (http://www.netherworld.com/~mgabrys/william/index.html), you should check it out! It is cool, it is recordings of Burroughs reciting excerpts ( Read more... )