so she says I am a different one .. someone to confirm she is there and she is real... she says she sees herself in me ( Read more... )

i talk, but i don't hear myself ( Read more... )

I've no idea who I am anymore ( Read more... )

( then why do you drink it til your blind )

So here I am again, sitting alone on the windowsill of our loft; overlooking Broad Street beneath me ... there is a bum rummaging through the trash bin, a few police are strolling around the opposite side of the street, rats the size of small dogs keep darting back and forth between the gutters, a couple is walking along the sidewalk below, they ( Read more... )

i'll pretend like this isn't goodbye.
but we both knew, deep down, it was the beginning of the end. You'll always be my soul mate, twin, best friend and co-pilot.

there is nothing more devastating than realizing the end has come to one of the greatest bonds of your life -- nothing is more heart breaking than forcing yourself to face facts -- nothing ( Read more... )

friends who once felt closer to me than my own family now feel like distant, estranged, third cousins. that hurts my heart more than anything in the world... and there is nothing I can do to get them back....

...but that's life?

( there's no easy way out )

loft.view.roomies.love.new.family.party:

( near perfection: )

Your needs will be met when you're able to voice what they are. It's time to stop following the script that other people have written and find what you really need, want and love. Think about it.

fuck. ... what I want/need/love is so obscure to me these days. everything i want/need/love is so far away/ to hard to obtain.

Good things:

-love my apartment
-love my roomie
-LOVE my new college/campus
-love the new people i've been meeting
-love Smoothie King being right outside my door
-we dont need cable because people watching out of our window[s] is just as entertaining.
-i'm going to NYC again this month.

Bad things:
-lost my job at compound ( Read more... )