well, I am not really in a mood to complain about anything, nor do i feel utterly content to comment on that....just apathetic in a way ( Read more... )

i dont want to go to work...but i havent been working that much so...yay. and im hungry, i want to be fed....hmm and im already worrying again about what i want to do with my life, how im going to get into a good school because im retarded. and if i do, how to pay for it.....blah school was nice today i had a good morning....*winks*...hmm bye bye

its been a long time since i have felt so utterly content. I wonder how long the feeling can last...thank you...for everything you make me feel...most important, loved. Para scott, my newfound bud, mi chiquita...y mi amor. Les quiero mucho....

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well, it finally happened...and kind of when i least expected it. Last night i had way too much free time, i had a day off, which was strange, but i also had absolutely NO homework...so i tried to relax...bubblebaths oh so yummy but since i had no hot water i actually boiled a huge pot and dumped it in the tub...the lengths to which i will go for a ( Read more... )

you all know what? i havent ranted about everything that has been on my mind, because even though this is supposed to be a journal that you can write whatever you want in, i tend to censor myself...whether for the comfort of others, or mine because i dont worry about them knowing the details of my life....but now i need to...so fuck it all ( Read more... )

a la chingada.

well....i now have a pleasant second job at burger king, which not only makes me happy due to exra income but i get to see nicole much more, because she is always there...and hopefully i will be joining her for much of that time....other than that...everything is just kind of screwed up and confused in my head...and then i have bouts of extreme ( Read more... )

last night was not fun, forget it being upsetting to me and whatever...i worry for my brother. i got home last night to find him sitting in the driveway with suitcases and guitar behind him, rocking with the rythym of his sobs. I didnt quite know what to do even though the position felt so familiar, i have been there. So i just held him and tried ( Read more... )

well....i think i will be okay...at least i dare to hope so, even as i feel my world crumbling around me...while i feel it is irrational, i know everyone looks at me and says i worry too much, and they think i have structure, i dont know, but if my mind isnt structured....nothing else is. me quedo dentro de todo este dolor. no me queda mas refuge ( Read more... )